My Hypocritical Fear...

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Polly_Princess

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I know this is going to sound hypocritical (and I certainly don't mean any offence to anyone by saying this), but does anyone else fear mental illness? I know that sounds ridiculous given that OCD is a mental illness itself, but does anyone else have these kind of fears...

I know I have OCD, but do I have something else? Is it OCD or am I just crazy? I felt happy this morning and now I'm sad....Could I be BiPolar? Eekk...what if I'm Bipolar? And then I'm sure I saw something that wasn't there yesterday. Maybe it wasn't a trick of the light...Maybe I'm Schizoprenic? What should I do? How should I hide it? What if I become psychotic? What if I need anti-psychotics? I remember that magazine article I read on meds like that. They sound so toxic...And I'd get so fat. I'm fat enough already.And what wil everyone think of me? Everyone already knows I'm crazy....I'm sure of it. Why did I seek help? I should've just kept quiet. Oh how I wish I could have a clean medical record. A clean slate. Oh to start afresh...I need to stop these thoughts. I'm going to clean the bathroom even though I did it three hours ago....

Does anyone else relate to this?
 
lunaticbinge

lunaticbinge

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I am somewhat of a hypochondriac so i know what you mean. I'll often look up mental conditions and think i have it. It's like i'm always selling my mind short. Sometimes i think i'm so mentally weak that i must have every mental illness under the sun.
 
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Kinetik

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This is a pretty common worry, I think. The problem is that a lot of personality disorders overlap, and a person can have symptoms of nearly all of them at one point or another. The obsession over illness is a sign of OCD in and of itself, though. The internet doesn't help either, with its endless nightmare scenarios of everything you Google being a brain tumor or something else terminal. I found a random little bump in my forearm the other day and I actually found myself thinking along the lines of "oh god, forearm cancer... " before realizing how utterly retarded that sounds. :D
 
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Sophius

Member
Back in Febrary, I was getting very upset because I believed that i was bi-polar and possibly a schizophrenic, and for the past two months, I've constantly been afraid of going psychotic. I can definitely relate.
 
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Polly_Princess

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AHHHH!!! This is SOOO annoying! I've just wasted like 3 hours online googling various information about mental health problems/statistics/symptoms/online tests/foums.

This is a bad addiction for me. I waste a good 4-5 hours per week doing this! It's by far my most prominent obsession and it's terrible. I'm wasting too much time and I'm obsessing too much. It's got to the point where I'm overanalysing every single last action in my life and fearing that it's the symptom of a mental illness (because, let's face it, if you really look at those DSM-IV criteria, hundreds and hundreds of things can contribute to a diagnosis).

I'm thinking that I might have to just ban myself from going online more than 10 minutes a day. I've tried doing this many times before though and it hasn't worked! What should I do?
 
Going Insane

Going Insane

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I'm so hard that people are scared of me and they should be... 'Cause I'll explode all over them.

That's nasty...
C'mon I'm eating here...
 
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