It doesn't matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find a girlfriend.
And I'd desperately want to have one.
It's not a question of sex. It's a question of finding someone willing to go beyond appearances, willing to love me and accept me as I am.
I'm 23 years old, I'm extremely shy, and I suffer from palmar hyperhidrosis.
This is the story of my first and only date.
Last year I tried internet dating for the first time. I thought it could be a nice way of getting to know someone without them knowing about my disease. I managed to find a girl I actually had a few interests in common with, and started talking with her. We kept the conversation going for 3 months before deciding to meet. I was quite happy to find someone who was interested in me.
Winter. Saturday afternoon. Temperature: 2°C.
I arrived at the park at 2.00 pm. We actually had to meet at 2.30, but I wanted to make sure to be there, no matter what. I even brought with me a box of chocolates, thinking it might make a nice gift.
At 2.30 I sit on a bench, waiting for her.
Time passed...
3.30. There was still no sign of her. It started raining, and I took out my umbrella. I already knew how it would end, but I told myself to keep waiting. Maybe there'd been a problem with her bus, maybe something had happened to her brother. Maybe I was just making up excuses...
...
4.30. I started sneezing but the rain had stopped... only to be replaced by snow. But I was still there. I didn't want to give up. I would have given up an arm just to have someone who cared about me. I was foolishly hoping for a miracle...
...
5.30. Still snowing. I was the only person left in the park. I'd tried my best to hold back the tears, but there was no point anymore. I was alone. That day, just like every other day of my life, nobody cared.
I threw away the box of chocolates, and went back home. A few minutes later, the snow had stopped.
-Read this-
The status symbols I listed-
If you probably don't have one of those, that might be the cause of this thing.
Women tend to be highly demanding. Not all, but most.
It doesn't matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find a girlfriend.
And I'd desperately want to have one.
It's not a question of sex. It's a question of finding someone willing to go beyond appearances, willing to love me and accept me as I am.
I'm 23 years old, I'm extremely shy, and I suffer from palmar hyperhidrosis.
This is the story of my first and only date.
Last year I tried internet dating for the first time. I thought it could be a nice way of getting to know someone without them knowing about my disease. I managed to find a girl I actually had a few interests in common with, and started talking with her. We kept the conversation going for 3 months before deciding to meet. I was quite happy to find someone who was interested in me.
Winter. Saturday afternoon. Temperature: 2°C.
I arrived at the park at 2.00 pm. We actually had to meet at 2.30, but I wanted to make sure to be there, no matter what. I even brought with me a box of chocolates, thinking it might make a nice gift.
At 2.30 I sit on a bench, waiting for her.
Time passed...
3.30. There was still no sign of her. It started raining, and I took out my umbrella. I already knew how it would end, but I told myself to keep waiting. Maybe there'd been a problem with her bus, maybe something had happened to her brother. Maybe I was just making up excuses...
...
4.30. I started sneezing but the rain had stopped... only to be replaced by snow. But I was still there. I didn't want to give up. I would have given up an arm just to have someone who cared about me. I was foolishly hoping for a miracle...
...
5.30. Still snowing. I was the only person left in the park. I'd tried my best to hold back the tears, but there was no point anymore. I was alone. That day, just like every other day of my life, nobody cared.
I threw away the box of chocolates, and went back home. A few minutes later, the snow had stopped.