thoughts2
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if you u have not read my other topic this will not make any since to u so read other first plz it has the same title allmost as this one.
age 7
when i was little i was beaten alot by my dads brother he would make me feel weak and unwanted by anyone and unloved by anyone. when ever he would beat me i would try and fight back but no matter how hard i tryed or how hard i tryed to stand up for myself he would shoot me down.
age 9
i saw my first person to ever die right in front of me it was from a car crash the impact was so strong it crushed her body and poped her head open. i was so close that blood was splatered on me. i watched everyone one around me panic and cry and were so scared for what had just happend. but i was the closest to the crash and saw everything but i did not cry i was not scared. all i could think about was y everyone els was.
age 12
im in school and i was allways picked on the most was the outcast of everyone. i started to hate everyone i wanted to make them fear me somehow and couldent find a way to make them scared of me. then for sme odd reson the image of that girls twisted crushed body poped in my head from the crah i saw a few years ago. and how everyone aound it was so scared how they fear for what had happend. then it hit me people where afraid of death.
age13
all i could think about was how death made people fear u just about everynight i had a dream about death and how i hated everyone for picking on me making me feel weak and how i was beaten and could do nothing to stop it. after a whie i stoped thinking about it and moved on with my life.
age 19
i just got out of highschool and everyone was talking about what collage people are going to i had alot of friends now and was accepted by people and i was happy. no one picked on me or made me feel weak. and then one knight one of the girls i was friends with called me and we tlaked for a while she asked me yi never talk about my child hood and i said that there was nothing to it and nothing u need to warry about. after i got off the phone with her i whent to sleep and for some reson i had a dream about killing people and eating them and that i was the strongest and dreamed about my past and how my dads brother beat me.
age 19 a few months later
well you now know the rest from here thx to my last post
plz comment on what you think is there a connection in all this? am i getting anycloser to solving my problem
age 7
when i was little i was beaten alot by my dads brother he would make me feel weak and unwanted by anyone and unloved by anyone. when ever he would beat me i would try and fight back but no matter how hard i tryed or how hard i tryed to stand up for myself he would shoot me down.
age 9
i saw my first person to ever die right in front of me it was from a car crash the impact was so strong it crushed her body and poped her head open. i was so close that blood was splatered on me. i watched everyone one around me panic and cry and were so scared for what had just happend. but i was the closest to the crash and saw everything but i did not cry i was not scared. all i could think about was y everyone els was.
age 12
im in school and i was allways picked on the most was the outcast of everyone. i started to hate everyone i wanted to make them fear me somehow and couldent find a way to make them scared of me. then for sme odd reson the image of that girls twisted crushed body poped in my head from the crah i saw a few years ago. and how everyone aound it was so scared how they fear for what had happend. then it hit me people where afraid of death.
age13
all i could think about was how death made people fear u just about everynight i had a dream about death and how i hated everyone for picking on me making me feel weak and how i was beaten and could do nothing to stop it. after a whie i stoped thinking about it and moved on with my life.
age 19
i just got out of highschool and everyone was talking about what collage people are going to i had alot of friends now and was accepted by people and i was happy. no one picked on me or made me feel weak. and then one knight one of the girls i was friends with called me and we tlaked for a while she asked me yi never talk about my child hood and i said that there was nothing to it and nothing u need to warry about. after i got off the phone with her i whent to sleep and for some reson i had a dream about killing people and eating them and that i was the strongest and dreamed about my past and how my dads brother beat me.
age 19 a few months later
well you now know the rest from here thx to my last post
plz comment on what you think is there a connection in all this? am i getting anycloser to solving my problem