this_portrait
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I can't seem to make up my mind.
For a few months, I'm whining and bitching about how I can't seem to get a boyfriend because every guy I see that I start getting a little attracted to has a girlfriend, and every guy who likes me is so not my type.
Then a friend from home tries to set me up with a friend/co-worker of hers during my spring break.
Now, don't get me wrong; I talked to him and got to know him better and everything. . . but eventually I came to the conclusion that I don't want a relationship and just want to be isolated and left alone. I haven't talked to this guy in quite a while now, though I wasn't really the one who began all of our online conversations anyway, so in a way he stopped talking to me (not that I really care).
I told my friend about how I don't want a relationship and just want to be alone, and she doesn't seem to understand. She told me that if I don't "live [my] life right now, [I'll] regret it in the future." Obviously we both have this different definition of "life," because "life" for me isn't meeting as many people as I can; it's getting by and being successful.
I'm now afraid to hang with her because I'm nervous she's going to try to pressure me into doing things I absolutely don't want to do, as well as continue trying to set me up, even though I've made it clear to her that I don't want a relationship at all.
What shocked me even more was her suggestion that I date some random guy for the hell of it, and if it doesn't work out, oh well. I don't think so. I'm not the type of person who can just date someone; I have to like them a lot first, and they have to like me back. Dating someone you don't like is like casual sex without the sex. It's not for me, and since it isn't exactly for her, either, she should know better than to suggest that to me.
So yeah. I haven't been talking to either my friend or her friend/co-worker at all lately, and I would like to keep it that way until I don't feel so awkward (which is going to be a very long while).
Any thoughts?
For a few months, I'm whining and bitching about how I can't seem to get a boyfriend because every guy I see that I start getting a little attracted to has a girlfriend, and every guy who likes me is so not my type.
Then a friend from home tries to set me up with a friend/co-worker of hers during my spring break.
Now, don't get me wrong; I talked to him and got to know him better and everything. . . but eventually I came to the conclusion that I don't want a relationship and just want to be isolated and left alone. I haven't talked to this guy in quite a while now, though I wasn't really the one who began all of our online conversations anyway, so in a way he stopped talking to me (not that I really care).
I told my friend about how I don't want a relationship and just want to be alone, and she doesn't seem to understand. She told me that if I don't "live [my] life right now, [I'll] regret it in the future." Obviously we both have this different definition of "life," because "life" for me isn't meeting as many people as I can; it's getting by and being successful.
I'm now afraid to hang with her because I'm nervous she's going to try to pressure me into doing things I absolutely don't want to do, as well as continue trying to set me up, even though I've made it clear to her that I don't want a relationship at all.
What shocked me even more was her suggestion that I date some random guy for the hell of it, and if it doesn't work out, oh well. I don't think so. I'm not the type of person who can just date someone; I have to like them a lot first, and they have to like me back. Dating someone you don't like is like casual sex without the sex. It's not for me, and since it isn't exactly for her, either, she should know better than to suggest that to me.
So yeah. I haven't been talking to either my friend or her friend/co-worker at all lately, and I would like to keep it that way until I don't feel so awkward (which is going to be a very long while).
Any thoughts?
