FriendlyShadow
Well-known member
I'd like to start off by saying (most of you should already know by now) that I don't consider myself to be an attractive person. I think average or plain looking is the best definition that suits me. Thing is, is that I have the habit of enjoying to giving compliments to others (maybe it's because I feel like I have to do it anyways) but I have this strong aversion towards others who compliment me back. They always say "Oh, you have such pretty hair"(I get that a lot but I think my hair is really dry and too thick." "Oh, you should smile more."(This one I hate. I hate my teeth because they're always yellow and I don't think its necessary that I need to be told that if I don't feel like smiling."
Almost all of the time, I wear my hair back because for some reason I guess if my hair is down and long, then people will really go overboard with the compliments. I guess because I look "beautiful" to everyone, then I must attain certain qualities a female should have (make up, gossip, ect) and I hate that in those people' minds, that's how I do act but it's not true. Even when the shy guys look at me while I have my back turned, I feel that they get the idea that I'm one of those "popular" people who won't give them the time of day and are flirtatious. The truth is behind all of that prettiness and kindness is actually a mask I'm wearing. I'm the same socially inept, clumsy, push over fool lying beneath. I don't want these people to get the wrong idea that I am what they think I am. I read sites like yahoo answers and see bunch of these questions that kind of make me feel sort of guilty inside. Some of those people online say it's annoying to always try and bring up the person's self esteem and that they won't believe them.
But for my case, they don't know what my whole story is about. I've had plenty of unfortunate and terrible things happen to me that I can't expect myself to get over. I'm not expecting answers on here like, just build your self esteem. Nope, sorry that's not enough. As for hypocrites, I have no idea why it's okay when others will tell themselves that they're "ugly" or "they're not as pretty as their friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, ect" but when the other person claims they are ugly and is related to one of those people, then the other person will say "No, don't say that. You're pretty." I mean those people just go out of their way to try and change someone, but they're so oblivious they don't recognize that they need help for THEIR self esteem as well. I think if one person isn't going to believe that they are "worthy", then why should I feel that way about myself either. I don't think of myself as girl next door type, a tramp, a popular girl, or any category. I think I just think of myself as a person. That I'm just a person living in the world. Maybe I should just stop caring if I'm pretty or not from now on, though it won't be easy because there's so many freaking people out there who want to take my pictures, telling me to smile, and complimenting me. It's going to be ******* hard to do.
To all of you who will comment on this thread, please feel free to share similar experiences. Please don't tell me things that I need to raise my self esteem more or that oh it'll get better. I just want you to tell me if you have ever related to any of this. Thank you.
Almost all of the time, I wear my hair back because for some reason I guess if my hair is down and long, then people will really go overboard with the compliments. I guess because I look "beautiful" to everyone, then I must attain certain qualities a female should have (make up, gossip, ect) and I hate that in those people' minds, that's how I do act but it's not true. Even when the shy guys look at me while I have my back turned, I feel that they get the idea that I'm one of those "popular" people who won't give them the time of day and are flirtatious. The truth is behind all of that prettiness and kindness is actually a mask I'm wearing. I'm the same socially inept, clumsy, push over fool lying beneath. I don't want these people to get the wrong idea that I am what they think I am. I read sites like yahoo answers and see bunch of these questions that kind of make me feel sort of guilty inside. Some of those people online say it's annoying to always try and bring up the person's self esteem and that they won't believe them.
But for my case, they don't know what my whole story is about. I've had plenty of unfortunate and terrible things happen to me that I can't expect myself to get over. I'm not expecting answers on here like, just build your self esteem. Nope, sorry that's not enough. As for hypocrites, I have no idea why it's okay when others will tell themselves that they're "ugly" or "they're not as pretty as their friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, ect" but when the other person claims they are ugly and is related to one of those people, then the other person will say "No, don't say that. You're pretty." I mean those people just go out of their way to try and change someone, but they're so oblivious they don't recognize that they need help for THEIR self esteem as well. I think if one person isn't going to believe that they are "worthy", then why should I feel that way about myself either. I don't think of myself as girl next door type, a tramp, a popular girl, or any category. I think I just think of myself as a person. That I'm just a person living in the world. Maybe I should just stop caring if I'm pretty or not from now on, though it won't be easy because there's so many freaking people out there who want to take my pictures, telling me to smile, and complimenting me. It's going to be ******* hard to do.
To all of you who will comment on this thread, please feel free to share similar experiences. Please don't tell me things that I need to raise my self esteem more or that oh it'll get better. I just want you to tell me if you have ever related to any of this. Thank you.