Yeah, childhood had some good memories, but pretty much it sucked. I spent it waiting for the day when I could be an adult and do what I want. Sure, I do more bill-paying, and I work, but at least when I come home at the end of the day, the rest of the time is MINE to spend how I choose. Well, unless I would choose to spend it on a date or somthing in which case I'm SOL. I mean, I have more responsibility, but I don't have to fend off the constant berating I get if I don't do my chores perfectly, or if I do it in the "wrong" order, or I don't get proper permission first. As an adult:
-I can clean my room without first having to submit to mother a "list" of things I want to throw out. If I come across something I don't think I need, boom it's gone.
-I can put a poster up on a wall without being accused of "destroying the house" because of the permanent marks the scotch tape would leave on the fake paneling.
-I never use my dishwasher, but if I did, I wouldn't have to be reminded what a worthless pile of crap I am because I loaded it the wrong way. Even if I <gasp> LEAVE PLASTIC IN THE BOTTOM RACK AND IT MELTS I don't have to feel like our family went broke because I wasted water. Maybe I'm too "sensitive", but to this day I literally get nervous being in the SAME ROOM where a dishwasher is being loaded. Is that crazy?
-If my father calls my apartment, I don't have to be interrogated about why is that man calling here, and there you go defending wonderful father, if you love him so much why don't you go move in with him.
Wow, reading this list, no wonder I'd rather live alone. Also, no wonder I think I can't run a household and I wouldn't make a good partner.
Some people complain about posters on this board "whining" or "ranting", how it doesn't help anyone, but as I'm writing this down, this is really hitting home in a way I hadn't expected. Hmmm. I don't know what to think about that yet.
dottie said:
instead of feeling bad about childhood embrace the things in adulthood that make you happy. for me these things include: driving, staying out until as late as i want, dressing how i want, moving to anyplace on the globe i want, buying which groceries i like, having whatever pets i want, doing things on my terms. things like that. embrace the freedom that adulthood gives you. maybe these things seem trivial and mundane but i guess from being controlled so much as a kid i find these little things to be especially valuable to me.
You forgot buying any kind of beer you want, lol. Or maybe you don't drink, in which case, good, more for me.