loops

[lonelee1]

i also just realized sometimes i'm over-dramatic. and i think that contributes to everything. endless loops, cycles of thinking. everything doesn't have to be some major revelation or dramatic moment. -_-

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

Any examples that you don't mind sharing? I'm trying to figure out if this could apply to me...I don't think I am. Hmmmmm

 

[lonelee1]

i don't know, everything feels so big to me sometimes. like minor situations seem symbolic to me in the moment and i think about it in relation to how im worthless and not worth knowing, etc. i think its part of the social anxiety and obsessive thoughts or something. i wish i could connect with someone without thinking in these patterns. :/ i'm up and down all day and i hate it

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

So you nit pick people's responses or lack of...........I think my radar is always on, looking for any blip of a person's displeasure. Then, I just want to write them off and I start to pull away.

 

[lonelee1]

So you nit pick people's responses or lack of...........I think my radar is always on, looking for any blip of a person's displeasure. Then, I just want to write them off and I start to pull away.

yes. we're hyper vigilant to signs of displeasure, but sometimes we might not be accurate. it's all really exhausting. like, if im at a store and i approach the clerk and my obsessive thoughts are up, i perceive the person to be slighting me or grossed out by my appearance or something. then i have this big revelation that i am indeed ugly or dumb and awkward. i hate thinking this way. i think i just need to relax.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

I'm not that bad with strangers. I analyze closer relationships and behaviors though. Yes, try to relax. Strangers are not worth it!!