sullyS1985
Well-known member
I am so lonely right now i cant stop looking at my cell phone to see if this chick has texted me or not. I dont think she will, i think i weirded her out and/or texted her too much. Every day that goes by I continue to think that i will be alone my whole life. I know ive mentioned this before and you all think i am just hungry for pity but im not. Im just trying to vent. I was happy all day yesterday and on monday because i had gotten this girls number from class talked to her for a while, about some pretty deep stuff, gave her a ride home because it was snowing all day and i felt like she really liked me. I know this is irrational and i complete like a weak piece of shit for feeling so depressed right now but that is how i feel. I truly believe i will be single the rest of my life and while im sure that may be possible for some, it doesnt seem like it to me. i have only had one or two girlfriends in my life, which i realize is more than most but the feeling of having someone care for you and be with you in situtions such as the one im in now is incredible. I am going to try going to the gym to make myself feel better about this situation, i sure hope it helps because i feel like im down in a 9 foot hole waiting for the stones to be put in to place.