LMM's Coming Off Meds Diary

[Little Miss Muffet]

Yesterday I spoke with an NLP coach. He set me these questions to answer:

What am I happy about right now?
What am I proud of right now?
What am I appreciating right now?
What am I enjoying right now?
What am I excited about right now?
What am I committed to right now?

He said: If the answer is something like 'Absolutely nothing!', simply re-phrase the question to:

What could I be happy about right now if I wanted to be?' or
what could I be proud of right now if I wanted to be? etc
The mind has to come up with a possitive answer!
To reinforce your new feeling even more, you can then ask,
'So what exactly is it about ....... that makes me happy?
& to reinforce that feeling even more you can ask,
'So how does that make me feel?'

We all want to feel good about ourselves. The quickest way to change how we feel is to change our focus and the most effective way to change our focus is by asking a new question.

 

[Little Miss Muffet]

The NLP coach actually set me those questions like a month ago but everytime i came to do it- i just thought if you genuinely feel happy then really I shouldnt have to think long and hard to come up with something. I phoned him and he set me on the right track

So right now I am truly happy that:

I work in the jobs that I do as there are actually loads of people that I enjoy speaking to. We mess around and have a laugh- thats what this life is for. ( i still have a 5 year old screaming in my head "NO I DONT WANT TO TALK" even when writing this )

I am coming off my meds.

I have my family: when I go to stay with them ( one night only or I get a bit drained, fed up) , i feel a massive sense of happiness.

I am fit and healthy

I get along with my neighbours


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But two weeks ago when I came to answer this first question I was like, happy?

But yeah the list can go on and on

 

[Little Miss Muffet]

Things are starting to unravel.

No desire to talk with anybody= talking less
Not starting to care about my job

If I do not restart taking the 5mg of my anti depressant again I am going to not care about anything.

I dont think its an addiction, deep inside I just dont have enough to make me want to be a part of this life.

I have been a bit fixated on finding a bloke cos for some messed up part of my mind when we fall asleep I wont wake up - I will die happy and not alone lol

This is just today and tomorrow will be much better

 

[MikeyC]

Sounds like you're struggling mentally, Muffet. Maybe getting off the anti-depressants was not right for you. I hope you don't slip into total apathy.

 

[Little Miss Muffet]

On 10mg now and last week i couldnt stay at my family's place - did not want to talk, couldnt go swiming had to come back home. Today Just not wanting to talk with them.