Living in a void

[mikebird]

It's not new

It's lasted a lot longer than I expected

I didn't quite predict the narrow disadvantage of having nobody to relate to or speak to. Each day is different, but an occasional 'what's next? What now' A cold look in the mirror. Life folds in onto itself. Ummm... reading a newspaper

A fright that as the brain comes up with its own ideas, the next event will be emptying my thoughts onto someone else.

Oh. All simply described as Cast Away! Tom Hanks didn't have SPW!

 

[hardy]

Sorry if i am intruding in your personal issues...but what about a 'random act of kindness' when you feel a little okay as your "Next Event"...!

We might forget our issues for a while when we help others, especially for someone who needs a hand ...

 

[mikebird]

You are right.

Being in a void is not an absolutely 100% truth. I do occasionally go to visit others nearby. Often I get no answer to their doorbells. There are people who refuse to ever do any work for the rest of their lives, living on disability benefit. Some are asleep in the morning until 8pm, and stay up past midnight, as they have to regime to live by. I still live on strict office hours. It's good to meet and talk, but it depends what's on each others' mind. I knew a couple, but now they're both single. I've known other people years ago, but I can't submit myself to the lullaby land of mainly sleep and no structure or willingness to do anything with your life. A friend drops by after work at about 1600 and just takes ownership of my devices and my time when I'd typically be searching for jobs online - simultaneously with reading and posting one this website.

Thinking of a life of NOTHING or Cast Away isn't quite honest. But an odd walk to town to pick up my prescription or supermarket and browsing GooG for whatever's on my mind or listening to music keeps me awake all day. I'll never did what student skipping lectures used to...

 

[laure15]

At least we're luckier than Tom Hanks in Cast Away. He only had a volleyball to talk to, and the sad thing is the volleyball can't respond to him no matter what he said. In contrast, we have SPW where we post things and get responses from people just like us!

Thinking about Cast Away, it does get lonely when we're in an island w/o anyone to talk to. Who would want a life like that? I have SA, but I don't want to be the last person on earth!

 

[mikebird]

Thinkin about this on a walk to collect medication - the only reason to get me out of the house... I went past a small construction site, staring up at the huge balanced crane in the sky, with no driver using it today... while delivering trucks of rock. I wish I had a job to do.

I wish the reason for my situation was due to a disaster like Tom Hanks with his FedEx job and plane crash. It's a life break to fight through and cope with. I'd like it, cuz I've managed with months in hospital.

Also, I really want a FedEx job. I loved pizza delivery when I was a student. The best fun I had. Free Dominos after every shift :applause: