Justice?

[Rodney]

Hey guys I would like to ask all of you a question. I came from a small grade school of 18 kids and in grade school I was one of the more popular kids and talked bad about the “weirder” ones and even pulled a few cruel jokes on them. Then in high school I became just a normal teen, I wasn’t popular but I wasn’t unpopular, I still had my cruel ways the first 2 years of high school though, the worst example was when I completely outcasted my one close friend who I now feel may have suffered from SAD ::. The 2 last years of high school I slowly became less able to socialize with people and after 3 months of university I have become a social reject and have been taunted and bullied once in awhile (not extremely but enough to hurt myself esteem).

Have I gotten what I deserved for being cruel to others? Would you call this justice? Do you wish people that bullied you would suffer the same fate that you do? Have you had a similar experience to me?

After going from one extreme to the other my eyes have been open to how cruel I was and how much people suck... If I could I would take all the hurtful things I have done back.

 

[FOR REAL]

i reckon youve learned from your mistakes. some people have no Conscience at all.
youve had the guts to admit you were wrong. respect mate
you feel it at the pit of your stomach and you hate it! (am i correct?)
youve suffered enough i think, try to put it behind you now that you have a clear Conscience.

 

[Reiji Moritsugu]

Some people just need to be thrown into the same abyss they threw others to in order to finally understand how they must have felt. Also, at least you know how your ex friend must have felt... a nice insight I say I will not say anything else since I have always been on the weirder side of things, so this post would be extremely biased. The good thing is that as dreamer said you have acknowledged what you did was wrong, and that is something most people never do. And as to answer your question I do not wish those who bullied me would suffer the same fate as I...I wish they would suffer a fate so bad that hell would be their heaven, even better if such happening was caused by none other than me

On other topic I find the fact that you suddenly went from popular to unwanted outcast to be somewhat weird...could you elaborate a bit more on that? something must have caused it, and as much as I´d like to I don´t think this is something as simple as karma, divine justice, you name it.

See you around

 

[Rodney]

thank u dreamer and reiji for the input it made me really happy ... and for reiji, it was not a sudden change from popular to outcast it was a gradual downhill thing with ups and downs, more downs than ups... I wrote a lil bit more about it in another post if ur interested... http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/what-triggered-your-sad-20017/ I feel like weed played a big role because sometimes it affects ones paranoia much more than others and it affected me a lot being that I already had SAD.... Some of my bad SAD moments happened while I was high.

 

[JCS008]

I believe in karma or justice, as you put it. I did a lot of things growing up that I'm not proud of when I look back and reflect on things. I did treat some people badly and judged others as well. I really reget it, and sometimes when things do go bad for me, I kind of think its karma working its way around towards me. I guess that's why I tried to redeem myself and began treating people better. Will it work? I don't know.

 

[Rodney]

wow who would have thought! thats crazy man when I think of the most popular kid from my highschool (who used to be my best friend in gradeschool) becoming like me I wouldn't think it possible. What went wrong/ caused your social decline?

 

[Rodney]

Yikes! u thought u had aids, hiv, cancer? what terrible thoughts... the brain is such an effed up thing lol.

 

[iamthenra]

.I wish they would suffer a fate so bad that hell would be their heaven, even better if such happening was caused by none other than me

Very well said. I was bullied from K - 12th grade, and beat by my mother starting at the age of 5. I was picked on, beat up badly, and was always the butt end of every joke. I can't tell you how many times I went home bloody. And for those individuals who caused me that kind of trauma, I wish that they would suffer even beyond what Reiji said in quotes above.... I would love to be the one inflicting the pain, Oh how I would love...LOVE to torture those who caused me pain throughout my school years. Revenge is a dish best served cold....

Sorry... I don't have much sympathy for bullies. I have some very strong emotions regarding this subject... "God created man, but Sam Colt made them all equal..."