MrsP
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I've been with my husband nearly ten years now and get on great with his family but every time there's a huge family gathering, like today (it's his Gran's 94th Birthday!), days before I can't sleep and I feel on the verge of a panic attack, worring that they will think I have nothing interesting to say and that I look fat and ugly, when they probs think nothing of the sort and it's just all in my head but I'm just a stay at home Mum , who worked as a clerk and Ant's entire family are either solicitors or teachers and there's even a doctor. Only one of them (my sister in law) is a snob, who will be chatting about ofstead reports all day and looks down at every one if they're not wearing clothes from MONSOON. I always feel such a failure and beneath her, though I do really like her!
I can't wait for when it's over tonight, though I'm calmer than I was coming on here but feel so stupid when I've been in this very same situation over and over and always end up quite enjoying it, despite havign a few paranoid thoughts throughout the day about what people must really be thinking of me.
I've been with my husband nearly ten years now and get on great with his family but every time there's a huge family gathering, like today (it's his Gran's 94th Birthday!), days before I can't sleep and I feel on the verge of a panic attack, worring that they will think I have nothing interesting to say and that I look fat and ugly, when they probs think nothing of the sort and it's just all in my head but I'm just a stay at home Mum , who worked as a clerk and Ant's entire family are either solicitors or teachers and there's even a doctor. Only one of them (my sister in law) is a snob, who will be chatting about ofstead reports all day and looks down at every one if they're not wearing clothes from MONSOON. I always feel such a failure and beneath her, though I do really like her!
I can't wait for when it's over tonight, though I'm calmer than I was coming on here but feel so stupid when I've been in this very same situation over and over and always end up quite enjoying it, despite havign a few paranoid thoughts throughout the day about what people must really be thinking of me.
