xtina_fan81
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I have been thinking lately, since started getting soo frustrated with the way my life was going, and i have this picture of the way itshould be going.
Im 19, by default should be going out, getting drunk, parties, friends, parties, friends..right?
But because of my circumstances ive started to think maybe thats not what i need.
i have facebook which is just a breeding ground for "normal" teenagers. everyone on there uploads pictures, videos, of everything they're up to and nights out etc, over and over again. it was especially bad at new year and it got me so depressed. I know that is what most people my age are doing, and i thought for a moment well myabe im just not the one for going out and doing that stuff, maybe its just not me, but i know im just thinking that to make me feel better, because i hve gone out in the past and loved it. so im really sure it si me and i would love to be doing that stuff, but ijust cant.
getting to the point; i was wondering wether, even though thats really what i want and it doesnt seem that much to ask for as everyone i know is doing it, maybe its not what i NEED right now, despite it being what i want most. i have a couple of friends that are nice people, they arent into the clubbing every week thing or anything like that and ive thought i want more people like myself in my life that really wants to be doing the partying thing, which i dont seem to have,. but then i think well they are still nice people, and i wont be going out and getting drunk with them that i think i want to be doing with people, but they will be supporting me, so is what i want what i need as well? or perhaps i just need some support and love that i maybe wouldnt get from people to have a drink with? obvsly i would have both if i coudl, but the thing is my priority rght now is to get better and i dont know what or who i need, want, or if the two are seperate things.
thoughts?
Im 19, by default should be going out, getting drunk, parties, friends, parties, friends..right?
But because of my circumstances ive started to think maybe thats not what i need.
i have facebook which is just a breeding ground for "normal" teenagers. everyone on there uploads pictures, videos, of everything they're up to and nights out etc, over and over again. it was especially bad at new year and it got me so depressed. I know that is what most people my age are doing, and i thought for a moment well myabe im just not the one for going out and doing that stuff, maybe its just not me, but i know im just thinking that to make me feel better, because i hve gone out in the past and loved it. so im really sure it si me and i would love to be doing that stuff, but ijust cant.
getting to the point; i was wondering wether, even though thats really what i want and it doesnt seem that much to ask for as everyone i know is doing it, maybe its not what i NEED right now, despite it being what i want most. i have a couple of friends that are nice people, they arent into the clubbing every week thing or anything like that and ive thought i want more people like myself in my life that really wants to be doing the partying thing, which i dont seem to have,. but then i think well they are still nice people, and i wont be going out and getting drunk with them that i think i want to be doing with people, but they will be supporting me, so is what i want what i need as well? or perhaps i just need some support and love that i maybe wouldnt get from people to have a drink with? obvsly i would have both if i coudl, but the thing is my priority rght now is to get better and i dont know what or who i need, want, or if the two are seperate things.
thoughts?