stewiegrif
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Im an 18 year old man and am currently enrolled in college, since about a year ago i have been hearing things and i can distinquish if they are real or not. This may sound strange but somtimes when i walk by a stranger or i am talking to someone i would hear them say a mean insult and i cant tell if i am just hearing things or they are really saying these things. I often hear them say i am ugly or im weird or something duragatory. I usually hear danm your ugly or someting along those lines. I went to the school phycologist and he tried to tell me that i suffer from schitzophrenia or schitzoaffectivenss but i really cannot accept that. Almost every time i hear these voices it has to do with how "ugly i am". For instance i was waiting at the bus station and i thought i heard this women say that i was fugly and or something then i went up to her and asked her why she said that. And she said she did not say anything but maybe she did and she didnt want to admit it. If im hanging otu with my friends i insist that i heard someone say something but my freind are like no they didnt say anything. This is like ruining my life and intefereing with my school work. Its hard to deal with being insulted every day wether it is real or not. I dont know how to cope with this and top of that i have no health insurance so i cannot recieve meds. Sometimes i ponder the thought of sucide but i really cant do that. In all honesty do you think these people really think of my appearence in that mannor like if you saw me would you think danm he is one ugly mofo. I certainly dont talk under my breathe and insult strangers. I dont mean to be vain or concieted in any way i look in the mirror and i see a disfiqured man then i go outside and hear people giving me crap about it. No body ever mentioned anything about my appreance so i thought i could get some honest opinions on here. Am i really that much of an ugly bastard or is this just all in my head. I need to know if i really look that weird i cant go through life not knowing that im strange looking i need someone to tell me so i can move on. Heres a few pics of me Flickr: stewiegrif3's Photostream. Dont comment mean things maybe a yes or no and some advice on how to cope with it. thank you