Is this part of growing up? Becoming Enlighten...

[Nack]

I should've created this thread yesturday but i had other stuff...

Anyway, I was watching "nature" and "nova" on television. Nova was doing a documentary on Human Evolution, and while i was watching that it made me as a human being, feel so insignificant, like my worries and anxieties they're nothing compared to the universe/history/future. What's the point of worrying and being scared? When one day your gonna die and that's it! All your life; all you've done is stayed home because you are scared, whats the point of that? The things that i want, i have to get it now before its too late... That's what i felt after watching that...

And Then after Nova there was Nature. This time it was about motherhood. If you can see some of the things animal do to each other, by god its amazing and at the same time disgusting. I saw some mothers watch as their young ones die and there was nothing they could do... Some even killed their own, others left their child to get food and to come back and find that their offsprings had been snatch by a fox or had been burnt by the suns heat... I don't know what i've learned from watching that, its something unexplainable...But i just feel like like i've learn something important you know?

 

[Dronee]

It reminds me of the quote from Sister Miriam Godwinson from the game Alpha Centauri.
"Some have asked, 'why would a perfect God create such a flawed universe', They have missed the greater conundrum, 'why would a perfect God create anything at all?"

I don't know man... I am a monotheist, but that question is still a very good one to me. I suppose He knows, we do not.

Sorry for rambling, just happened to enter my mind.

 

[Silvox Black]

Most likely, what you are experiencing is a mixture of a loss of innocence as well as self-awareness and independent thought. This is a difficult path, but one that almost all must take if they wish to be satisfied in life. This is where you will have to become open minded, reach your own conclusions, decide for yourself what you want to understand, what will be right and wrong. This is an important time for you. Use it well.

 

[MothMan]

enlightened is a strong word. I like to see it as connecting dots and identifying patterns. As one who believes in evolution and the big bang, I see everything as moving towards a better fit with out a reason but the laws of nature. It is exhilarating to know that there is so much going on now and more to come in the future. For me, i'm most eager to see the evolution of our social organization and distribution of resources.

Its easy to get lost in it all, but then you wake up and look at the stagnation of personal life.

 

[Nack]

Most likely, what you are experiencing is a mixture of a loss of innocence as well as self-awareness and independent thought. This is a difficult path, but one that almost all must take if they wish to be satisfied in life. This is where you will have to become open minded, reach your own conclusions, decide for yourself what you want to understand, what will be right and wrong. This is an important time for you. Use it well.

oooo so sophisticated. I need to quote this!

 

[Silvox Black]

oooo so sophisticated. I need to quote this!

Well I am flattered that you would go to such lengths as to quote my words. Though I do not believe it deserves such merit.

 

[Nack]

Well I am flattered that you would go to such lengths as to quote my words. Though I do not believe it deserves such merit.

But, it sound so real! My thoughts, beliefs, everything is different from back then. I feel like i'm looking for something..a destiny/purpose some would say...because i feel so out of place, my anxiety are going away, i'm doing things i couldn't have done in the past, your words are inspiring. And to some degree, makes a lot of sense to me.

 

[Jake123]

What's the point of worrying and being scared? When one day your gonna die and that's it! All your life; all you've done is stayed home because you are scared, whats the point of that? The things that i want, i have to get it now before its too late...

And what's the point of doing anything? It'll all be gone eventually and it would have meant nothing. I'm scared of what may happen if I go outside because I believe the things I want are out of my reach and I am incapable. There's fates worse than voluntary isolation and death, they lay between the two extremes which I'm terrified of (even if between them somewhere there's possible happiness)

 

[Silvox Black]

But, it sound so real! My thoughts, beliefs, everything is different from back then. I feel like i'm looking for something..a destiny/purpose some would say...because i feel so out of place, my anxiety are going away, i'm doing things i couldn't have done in the past, your words are inspiring. And to some degree, makes a lot of sense to me.

Then I am pleased that my words had such an effect. It is good that such things occur. I only ask that while you will be absorbing many new concepts and ideas, always keep an open mind. That is the one requirement of intelligent thinking, you must stay open to differing and contrary opinions. Do not fear to ask the questions that no one else will. Do not hesitate to pry beyond the matters that you understand. Question and live life as you will.

 

[Nack]

And what's the point of doing anything? It'll all be gone eventually and it would have meant nothing. I'm scared of what may happen if I go outside because I believe the things I want are out of my reach and I am incapable. There's fates worse than voluntary isolation and death, they lay between the two extremes which I'm terrified of (even if between them somewhere there's possible happiness)

Its all about happiness, a "certain" kind of happiness... i don't know how to explain it to u... But, I would rather be happy then scared and sad all my life. I'm totally in "ZEN MODE" right now.

 

[Silvox Black]

And what's the point of doing anything? It'll all be gone eventually and it would have meant nothing. I'm scared of what may happen if I go outside because I believe the things I want are out of my reach and I am incapable. There's fates worse than voluntary isolation and death, they lay between the two extremes which I'm terrified of (even if between them somewhere there's possible happiness)

The age old question...well, to be frank, it comes down to a matter of personal opinion. For me, the reason I strive for such knowledge and truth each day is because I wish to live up to my morals. I want, I need, to satisfy my principles. Yes I may die, and yes once I am dead it may have meant nothing, but throughout all of what I would have done, the one thing that mattered is that it made me calm. It gave me peace. I satisfied my own morals and principles and that is what truly matters. Of course, that is merely my own opinion. You may have a differing one.

 

[Hellhound]

And what's the point of doing anything? It'll all be gone eventually and it would have meant nothing. I'm scared of what may happen if I go outside because I believe the things I want are out of my reach and I am incapable. There's fates worse than voluntary isolation and death, they lay between the two extremes which I'm terrified of (even if between them somewhere there's possible happiness)

I might be wrong... but if you don't take the risk sometimes and dare to face your fears, how are you going to feel better and maybe find happiness?. If you keep convincing yourself that you are not capable and everything is terrifying out there, your fears will only get worse. I don't think you are incapable... it's just that negative image you have of yourself what causes your insecurities. I don't think it's easy to change your mind... but it's not impossible or out of your reach...

Sorry for talking crap, you can smack me in the face with a hammer now

 

[Jake123]

I might be wrong... but if you don't take the risk sometimes and dare to face your fears, how are you going to feel better and maybe find happiness?. If you keep convincing yourself that you are not capable and everything is terrifying out there, your fears will only get worse. I don't think you are incapable... it's just that negative image you have of yourself what causes your insecurities. I don't think it's easy to change your mind... but it's not impossible or out of your reach...

Sorry for talking crap, you can smack me in the face with a hammer now

I don't want to be hurt again like I've been hurt in the past. It's not worth the risk.

 

[Hellhound]

I don't want to be hurt again like I've been hurt in the past. It's not worth the risk.

Well... Those bad things that happened in the past could be used at your favor, i think. Thanks to the bad experiences you might be able to identify the crappy people.. and if they try to hurt you, you will know it's time to tell them to GTFO or just avoid them. I don't know.. o:

I know how you feel though, and i know it's a not too nice situation... I am terrified too of getting hurt like in the past, and thanks to that fear, i am very paranoid and distrustful x.x