eckoz
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A little background on me first to maybe help you assess properly...
Im 20 years old, quit highschool at 17 to do homeschooling because i was smoking to much pot which caused me to become very paranoid/ self concious/ anti - social type person. ive always been lazy and a procrastinater. i put off doing things that dont interest me( for example homeschool work) for long periods of time.
I have become slightly over weight since i quit going to school every day. i was in great shape before , now im just kinda pugy with a fat face. i have a treadmill and i want to run on it, but every time i think i want to run on it , i have a REALLY hard time getting the motivation to actually get up and run on it, from the time i have the thought that i want to lose weight get in shape and be more healthy and should be running on my treadmill. theres not even a internal voice or concious saying anything, and i dont know why but i just dont want to do it, though i actually do.... sorry if thats confusing.
The same thing happens any time i have to do anything that doesnt interest me. Also when i got a job after a while of being at home every day i found it really hard to relate to people. for example at lunch one time me and this girl were the only people who didnt smoke there so we didnt go out for a smokebreak but ate lunch together and kind of talked a lil. though she did most of the talking, she just talked about literally everything, from her interests to shit that happened to her on the weekend or whatever, and the whole time found it REALLY hard to look like i was interested in what she was having to say, or things to respond with.. Is this because i am depressed? or is this social phobia or both. i know i have mild social phobia,but im not sure about depression.. any1 with experience in depression know if this looks like i have depression? thanks
Im 20 years old, quit highschool at 17 to do homeschooling because i was smoking to much pot which caused me to become very paranoid/ self concious/ anti - social type person. ive always been lazy and a procrastinater. i put off doing things that dont interest me( for example homeschool work) for long periods of time.
I have become slightly over weight since i quit going to school every day. i was in great shape before , now im just kinda pugy with a fat face. i have a treadmill and i want to run on it, but every time i think i want to run on it , i have a REALLY hard time getting the motivation to actually get up and run on it, from the time i have the thought that i want to lose weight get in shape and be more healthy and should be running on my treadmill. theres not even a internal voice or concious saying anything, and i dont know why but i just dont want to do it, though i actually do.... sorry if thats confusing.
The same thing happens any time i have to do anything that doesnt interest me. Also when i got a job after a while of being at home every day i found it really hard to relate to people. for example at lunch one time me and this girl were the only people who didnt smoke there so we didnt go out for a smokebreak but ate lunch together and kind of talked a lil. though she did most of the talking, she just talked about literally everything, from her interests to shit that happened to her on the weekend or whatever, and the whole time found it REALLY hard to look like i was interested in what she was having to say, or things to respond with.. Is this because i am depressed? or is this social phobia or both. i know i have mild social phobia,but im not sure about depression.. any1 with experience in depression know if this looks like i have depression? thanks