is it worth it?

bellsy

New member
Hello,my names Rich.39 and from the uk.I was diagnosed with sp about two months ago.Its something i now realise i have suffered from most of my life.At first being told i have sp was a relief,a reason for why ive been like i am for so long.now though life just seems to be getting harder by the day.ive seen what i believed to be a therapist a few times only to find out that hes not a therapist,just s doctor whos monitoring my mood and medication.(mirtazapine).He told me theres a two year waiting list for a tharapist and my only other option is group therapy,which i dont see as an option.I have lost several jobs and am currently out of work through sp.i have no friends after losing my only real friend through a disagreement a while back.im married with 2 chilren who cant seem to do anything right in my eyes at the moment.no social life whatsoever.im finding it harder each day to even step outside the front door.to top things off my cat got run over yesterday morning and in the afternoon i recieved a phonecall asking if i could take my moms dog to the vet today to be put down due to his age.there just seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel.is it really allworth it?
 

Phoenixx

Well-known member
Welcome to SPW, bellsy :)

At first being told i have sp was a relief,a reason for why ive been like i am for so long.now though life just seems to be getting harder by the day.
^ That is exactly how I felt when I discovered I had SA. I, too, felt relieved that there was an answer to why I act the way I do. But since then, it's still been a struggle for me. I have been improving though and I hope you can too. :)
 

bellsy

New member
Thanks for your words of advice,things look a little brighter today,any advice is appreciated as this is all new to me at present.
 
I remember a giant weight being lifted off of me when I was diagnosed with SA. But that is just the beginning. It's going to be a long struggle. I've been at it for over 3 years and still have my ups and downs. The important thing is to try and stay positive. Enjoy your family; they are going to be your biggest and most important support system. And this site, of course. I just started posting here and I think it's been a huge help in reminding me that I'm not alone. Plus you can vent and rant and rave and the people here understand.

As for your pets, I just lost my kitten a couple of weeks ago. It's really hard to lose a pet, especially if you consider them a part of your family like I do. It may seem like life is just dumping on you right now, but this is just one of the lows. If you work at it, you'll have some highs, too, and they definitely make it all worth it. Good luck! :)
 
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