Insecurities...

[Starry]

Not very good, and I've used the words "Find" and "Mind" too many times, but oh well it's how I felt as I wrote it. *Sigh*

Insecurities

Insecurities are all that I find
Steals peace and security from my own mind
Taunted and hated, verbally abused.
All from within, the accuser: The accused.
Trusting is hard when you can’t trust yourself.
Can’t get away from this ill mental health.
Wish, just for once, one person I could find
Who is able to make me change my mind.
Stop all the loathing and hating I find
From biting and snarling, devouring my mind.
Killing me slowly through torture and pain
I try so hard, though I never seem to gain.
Help me, please help me, I beg of you.
Someone please help me to undo
The suffering and anguish I suffer each day
I need friends. I need love to light my way.
Yet I fear that I shall never receive
That which I long for, that thing I do grieve.
As long as I’m like this, no chance do I stand
Of ever being normal, or holding your hand,
I long for the touch of love’s warm caress
But all that I have is anxiety and stress.
Tearing and ripping, stabbing at me.
Hurting me with negativity.
“They don’t want to talk, they’re just being kind,
To think they could like you, you must have been blind.”
Pitying, and loathing, I am a fool you see
To think anybody could care for me.

 

[nimrodel]

Oh my god, that was perfect!
I really loved it, it was beautifully written. I'm printing it out right now.
You have an amazing talent. Have you written any other poems?

 

[Starry]

Thank you very much for liking it.

Yes I've written other poems. I don't think any of them are much good though. I've got others that Ive written about feeling lonely and down etc that I haven't put up yet, but I may do in the near future.

Thank you very much for liking it.

 

[Asmo213]

So true...so tragic... a great poem indeed. It's the epitome of living with social anxiety I think. I don't know much about poetry but I give you an A++

Please don't hesitate to post some more!!!!

 

[Starry]

Thank you very much too.

Really you have no idea how much in need of encouragement I've been today. So thank you very, very much.

 

[Starry]

Thank you Mick.

I'm really surprised that my poem seems to have effected people. I really didn't think it was any good, just me rambling on because I felt miserable.

Thank you to everyone that's commented! And to anyone else that has read and liked it, but not commented.