I'm 17. in HS, 11th grade, and skipping school a lot..I cant continue to do this...i might even drop out,.. I get rly obsessed and depressed.
I have major humour issues..(other ones are isssues with wanting to be above average smart, talented etc)
but humor kills me the most...
see I used to be very funny, remember making my friends laugh, not at me, with me, and if I thought my humor was good, it prolly was, cuz i am very self critical..and now it's passed three years and i havent been myself.. funny or who ever that person is..
I feel rly bad when someone else is funny, always compare my used to be humor with theirs, always wondering will it ever come back..
im just to obsessed..
and I believe, as APSURD AS IT IS, that life w/o my humor is useless, cuz i wont be able to interact well, so career makes no sense, as in school makes no sense, and I dont have the strength to go to school, let alone to study, I have good grades, moslty As, it'd be a shame..
I think there is no way in interacting if u are not funny or witty..well i might think this cuz i have no way, cuz that is who i used to be and now excepting less, just kills me..cuz i see ppl who arent exactly funny and they have a fine life.. but i with my SA i thought humor was my way OUT!
sorry for the long post.. i;ve been obsessing wiht this for quite a while.. :/
this souns very childish, I know.. :/
I have major humour issues..(other ones are isssues with wanting to be above average smart, talented etc)
but humor kills me the most...
see I used to be very funny, remember making my friends laugh, not at me, with me, and if I thought my humor was good, it prolly was, cuz i am very self critical..and now it's passed three years and i havent been myself.. funny or who ever that person is..
I feel rly bad when someone else is funny, always compare my used to be humor with theirs, always wondering will it ever come back..
im just to obsessed..
and I believe, as APSURD AS IT IS, that life w/o my humor is useless, cuz i wont be able to interact well, so career makes no sense, as in school makes no sense, and I dont have the strength to go to school, let alone to study, I have good grades, moslty As, it'd be a shame..
I think there is no way in interacting if u are not funny or witty..well i might think this cuz i have no way, cuz that is who i used to be and now excepting less, just kills me..cuz i see ppl who arent exactly funny and they have a fine life.. but i with my SA i thought humor was my way OUT!
sorry for the long post.. i;ve been obsessing wiht this for quite a while.. :/
this souns very childish, I know.. :/