But apparently not sick enough where I stop caring unfortunately. I'd really like to get to that point though. I mean REALLY would like to get to that point. Hopefully I can hit a breaking point one of these days, and just get out there and make a fool out of myself until i finally can say "who cares." Nobody does anyways. Cause This is really a sad way to live......or "exist" actually, doesn't deserve to be called "living." Because If that's how I value myself, by what other people think of me, what little depth and substance I have within myself......is completely washed down the drain. Very pathetic 27 years of existence. Anyways, I have no questions here at all, just a mindless pessimistic rant really.......so i apologize if you wasted 30 seconds or so reading this.