I'm never going to find someone

[dannyboy65]

I know I'm still only 18 but I'm just really lonely I don't really get to hangout with people and I usually hangout with my best friend but I don't know I just feel lonely even when he's around me. At school my only friend is my E.A (education assistant) I enjoy having him around too but I don't know. I recently got through a huge battle with schizophrenia I was battling since I was 14 and now that the voices disappeared its different and weird because I was so used to them. I know I'm right for someone I never gave up after 12 years of bullying, I won my battle with schizophrenia, and in school I'm getting 80's and 90's my worse mark so far was 82% in high school that would be my highest. I also won my battle with drug use and have been clean for a year now. What I'm saying is its hard for me to actually talk to girls I have autism and I can barely speak to people anyway. But behind this awkward person is a caring person that no one wants to get to know. I don't care if the person was far away or next door just to have that feeling of love would make me a happier person then I already am growing into.

 

[Diend]

I don't really understand what it feels like to have autism or schizophrenia but I also have trouble socializing and I feel lonely as well. I like to write down my thoughts and worries. It makes me feel better temporarily. I also like to post on the forums. It makes me feel better.

 

[ukmale]

Join the club

Sadly for me I'm quite a large out going person that can talk for England but sadly I have starting going down hill last few yrs worse and worse being house bound going mute putting weight on as well what's the point in life it sucks and being male 24 in a highly sexual world with a tiny I mean tiny penis I just get laughed at ect so stopped trying my friends have married kids ect and I only get laughed at I have even been looking into castration as im a horny man I want a family ect but its never going to happen so what's point in going out ect

 

[Flanscho]

Whether you find someone or not depends mostly on yourself. If you decide that you will never find someone and live accordingly, then it's a self fulfilling prophecy, and something you might subconsciously even want for whatever reason.

 

[arandaro]

Not a person should ever feel alone in this world. We are all made equal. Do not be afraid to speak out loud,do not be afraid of the disparaging. We walk the same ground, breathe the same air. And at the end of the day, we are all just human beings. Equal, beautiful humans.
We wouldn't be in this world if we didn't had something to be here for.

 

[Clemisnail]

Hi. Upon reading your message, I wanted to say all that was already said above. Then I thought about what I could tell you from my experience that could help you. It probably isn't what you want to hear but I think it is a relevant thing to mention.
Relationships are complicated (some more than others) and love can be destructive. For me, the perfect love turned into a nightmare and I'm left to pick up the pieces after 6years of staying in the relationship for the bad reason (wanting to be loved). I am NOT saying that you should never get in a relationship, only that people can hurt you and that you can hurt yourself by staying in the relationship for the sake of love.
This being said, it takes courage to post what you posted and the first step is always the hardest. It's what's inside that matters, and people know that. You seem to be a strong person after all this battling to get yourself better. Keep up the good work

 

[Flanscho]

Well, as you said yourself, you're just 18. You changed so much in the past few years in ways you wouldn't have believed yourself, so why do you think that you can judge now what will happen to you during the rest of your life?