j_brown2
Banned
I was talking about your reference to tribal customs and inbred fears of being expelled from a community. Mystery's been harping on that crap for close to ten years now and it's like nails on a chalkboard to me.
I think it's great that you're tapping away. I would also suggest you work on slowly acclimating yourself to society once again, otherwise, when you finally decide to leave your room for good, it may be too jarring to do it in one shot. Even something as simple as taking your laptop to starbucks instead of sitting home online will slowly help you get used to being around people. After that you can make it your mission to compliment three people a day in passing and progress from there. Baby steps.
I knew what you meant... yea I know, Iam slowly starting to go out again, what I noticed is when I go out with my brother or parents I feel so good at times, like I wanna get attention, get people to notice me, I feel good about myself. I wanna do stuff in front of people and show off my skills haha, or have that cool swing in my walk... I thought I will never wanna do those things again
When I go out by myself, even at night for a run (where I feel hidden and safe) Iam still so anxious, uptight, light headed... I am sure I know why that is, so it's cool,