paranoid_android
Well-known member
I have been trying to write this post for some time but it always end up deleted. It seems that even in front of a machine I'm too fucking introverted or whatever this is. I have been digging for so long into myself that I feel that no longer I have the energy to cope to this situation. Yesterday, I went to a birthday's party of twins. There were some guys who like to be fun when they are together like fucking hienas. At some point of the party, when playing cards, after some alcohol, I noticed that these "comediants" said something about me, like calling me homo. I have no problem about it because I'm feeling confident about my sexuality, but what made me really angry was the fucking abuse and the attempt of making fun of me like I wasn't even there. Me, I pretended I didn't hear what they said 'cause I'm a fucking coward, a useless living thing. I should never let that go! I should have said something, confront them, and break a bottle on his/their shitty head(s) and make him/them bleed. That is what I should have done. I just want to explode instead of implode. I can't neither forgive myself nor being courageous enough to change it.
Sorry for this pitty session.
I really wish you all the best.
Sorry for this pitty session.
I really wish you all the best.