I wrote a poem about s.a

Skatergirl

Skatergirl

Banned
Staring at a large crowd
And I wonder why, i'm standing here, alone
They laugh out loud, Why am i standing still, on my own
If they ask me if i wanna join some event
Then I start asking for help and i wish i could just went
Pushing myself into the things I wanna do,
That I could just reach my goals,
And go for it. But then suddenly the anxiety walks by..


When I look to the crowds,
The pain increases, and makes me feel like i'm outta control
I don't know what to do, I'm being isolated, from all the fun in life
I just can't move, I'm sick of these uneventfull days,
I wanna party with my friends, I wanna spent all my time smiling,
And i wanna be free of this hell, and feel every day well.

So I start thinking again, and again,
I'm afraid of what will happen, I'm making spells of what is going to be
And i'm avoiding cuz i don't wanna see
I don't wanna make a mistake, cuz i don't wanna loose you
I want to be good to you people, I want to survive
I wan't to show you I'm a good person in life,
And then my heart says..
I wish I could just go my way...

Watching every little detail, of every minute around,
What i said , what i did, did i act weird,
I'm self concious , more than i need
It's good to think of your actions, To know what you do,
I know what's wrong and what's true.

Then I keep wondering, will i ever be fine,
How will my future be, will i overcome this social anxiety,
how would my life be, will i have a great memory too?
So I just let the destiny show my road..


So I start thinking again, and again,
I'm afraid of what will happen, I'm making spells of what is going to be
And i'm avoiding cuz i don't wanna see
I don't wanna make a mistake, cuz i don't wanna loose you
I want to be good to you people, I want to survive
I wan't to show you I'm a good person in life,
And then my heart says..
I wish I could just go my way...

Sometimes I walk by all the people,
They are looking down on me,
Then I start thinking, why are they looking down.
Do they think i'm ugly, do they think i'm everything like nothing,
Please don't judge me, But deep in my heart, I know no one does.
But when i'm shaking, and you notice that,
I feel ashamed, of my own broken part.

So I start thinking again, and again,
I'm afraid of what will happen, I'm making spells of what is going to be
And i'm avoiding cuz i don't wanna see
I don't wanna make a mistake, cuz i don't wanna loose you
I want to be good to you people, I want to survive
I wan't to show you I'm a good person in life,
And then my heart says..
I wish I could just go my way...
 
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overcome.

Well-known member
very nice poem! :) i think it's really nice and thoughtful how you took the time to create something like this, you can tell that it's nothing but your pure feelings from the heart. also a harsh reality of how s.a can make people feel.

but to end on a positive note, it was a lovely read! ;)
 
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