I wish I could talk to people

dannyboy65

dannyboy65

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Well about 2 years ago I was diagnosed with autism, anxiety and depression. Most recently I was just released from the hospital for attempted suicide I have been diagnosed schizophrenic along with what I had before. I am piss scared to talk to people I'm even scared telling people on here about this but I just want help. I want to learn to talk to people but I'm still in the basics of talking to people I just don't know how to interact with people. My doctor says its cause of my autism and I hate it. So many people I know can talk to people and be happy, then there's me on the side not knowing what to say. Then I always talk to much when they talk to me and they don't want to talk to me anymore because I'm annoying. It gets on my nerves and cause I don't talk people know me as a creep at school cause I just stare and am quiet. I'm scared to talk to people cause I'm scared they'll say something mean to me like they usually do. I feel like I'm targeted by everyone, and these voices don't stop in my head. They even got me to believe there my friend but I just don't know I'm sick of being called crazy. The voices tell me to kill myself because I'm useless they tell me I'm never going to have any friends that there the only friend I have. Yes my family knows of my voices and so do my doctors (I see 3 at the moment) I take 5 pills a day just to stay "happy" I wish I didn't need pills to feel an emotion.
 
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gummybear22

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about the voices, do you think real friends would tell you to kill yourself. they are anti-friends. making online friends is a good start, especially to get rid of your voices influence, and hopefully all parts of them.
what's some stuff you like to do?
 
mikebird

mikebird

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I've had purely physical medical problems with blood, migraine and epilepsy, all properly diagnosed since age 7

Mentally I was fine until I've faced the eternal torment of recruiters (bullies) keeping me away from work

Their diagnosis is (by telephone) always about autism and schizophrenia
which nobody has ever said to me (GP, neurologist or haemotologist)
or anyone else

Nobody mentions depression, which is by far my worst symptom

I really wish there wasn't rejection. It's not a crime to be unable to speak to people. It's my main problem. People seems to be addicted to people - their hugs 'n' kisses and screams of emotional outbursts. EVERYONE is like that.

Autism and anything similar should be respected and there should be a place for ANYONE who's not person-oriented.

I've thought of faking that I'm actually deaf and can only find work by website and email. Dunno if that'd be possible. I know the office would be much better if didn't have to use my ears. I could do my job

Anyone capable of reading a book, and writing some should have a place in society. Poetry? Music? Painting?

I wish all diagnosed people should have a chance to find the right niche. I'd like to be trained in mortal combat
 
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spearhunter

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I understand your pain , because we are all like that on this forum.But do the drugs you take help you talk to people?
 
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gummybear22

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what instruments do you play? i play piano and used to play trumpet also, and for 2 years in high school i also played steel drums :)
 
dannyboy65

dannyboy65

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gummybear22 said:
what instruments do you play? i play piano and used to play trumpet also, and for 2 years in high school i also played steel drums :)
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I play bass guitar, I like to sing death metal and deathcore stuff like that I also play the drums some what and a little guitar
 
dannyboy65

dannyboy65

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mikebird said:
I've had purely physical medical problems with blood, migraine and epilepsy, all properly diagnosed since age 7

Mentally I was fine until I've faced the eternal torment of recruiters (bullies) keeping me away from work

Their diagnosis is (by telephone) always about autism and schizophrenia
which nobody has ever said to me (GP, neurologist or haemotologist)
or anyone else

Nobody mentions depression, which is by far my worst symptom

I really wish there wasn't rejection. It's not a crime to be unable to speak to people. It's my main problem. People seems to be addicted to people - their hugs 'n' kisses and screams of emotional outbursts. EVERYONE is like that.

Autism and anything similar should be respected and there should be a place for ANYONE who's not person-oriented.

I've thought of faking that I'm actually deaf and can only find work by website and email. Dunno if that'd be possible. I know the office would be much better if didn't have to use my ears. I could do my job

Anyone capable of reading a book, and writing some should have a place in society. Poetry? Music? Painting?

I wish all diagnosed people should have a chance to find the right niche. I'd like to be trained in mortal combat
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I like your veiws on things because I'm bullied alot and have been my whole life and people wonder why I can't talk to them cause I'm always scared and their favorite name for me was always retard and I hate it because I'm autistic and thats the last thing I want to be called I was even picked on by my boss once for being autistic.
 
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