I wish I could be completely isolated.

[Plissken]

Like I could be put into a room that had a computer, a TV, a bed, and constantly resupplied with food. And I wouldn't have to talk to anyone or deal with anyone. I think only then could I be really happy. I'm fine by myself but then other people bring me down so much. I wish I could have that, even if only for a few years.

 

[ooSOULCRYoo]

Are you sure about that? Be careful what you wish for~ do you think that will make you happy? being isolated? The longest I have completely isolated myself from society is 3 weeks. After awhile you start to feel like a lab rat. Maybe you just need a long vacation!!

 

[Day_Tripper]

When I was depressed I wished I just lived in a trailer in the middle of Wyoming

 

[recluse]

I feel this way most of the time. People make me depressed but you can be your own worst enemy too.

 

[kyle]

Like I could be put into a room that had a computer, a TV, a bed, and constantly resupplied with food. And I wouldn't have to talk to anyone or deal with anyone. I think only then could I be really happy. I'm fine by myself but then other people bring me down so much. I wish I could have that, even if only for a few years.

You would go crazy. People need human interaction.

 

[xSleepy]

i think ive kinda been isolated for a few years. not completley isolated though. i men, i live with one other person. but sometimes when im alone for a long time i really do start to go crazy. so thank god i have my one and only friend who calls me every so often to make sure im still alive, lol. but really, being alone for too long can make someone go insane, but thats just my opinion.

 

[thequietone]

I thought this was what I wanted too--sometimes I still think it's what I want. I used to fantasize about "living in the wild", just taking a tent, finding a forest and focusing on survival so I wouldn't have to think about all those other painful human things that go on around us.
One thing I had to realize was, this is the world I was born into. Whether I like it or not, I have to exist here, so I might as well make the best of it. And being completely isolated does not make for a happy life.

 

[Foxglove]

I too would wish for total isolation. But not locked in a room. I would like to live on a farm out in the boondocks, where I never had to see any people. I would grow my own food, have my own livestock, bake my own bread etc. The only people I would have to see would be the veterinarian, the meter reader and the postman. And I guess I might have to go out and buy supplies several times a year. That kind of life would be paradise for me.

 

[flake__]

I too used to have this fantasy alot quietone/foxglove. Being in a room or house for too long makes you go mental on its own. But is this what we really want? It's what the sociophobic part of us wants, but really my ultimate fantasy is to live a normal, social life...and enjoy it, instead of hating every social moment! i want to start my own business and help developing countries, make a difference. But my sociophobia just wants to lock myself away.

 

[Tryin]

Like I could be put into a room that had a computer, a TV, a bed, and constantly resupplied with food. And I wouldn't have to talk to anyone or deal with anyone. I think only then could I be really happy. I'm fine by myself but then other people bring me down so much. I wish I could have that, even if only for a few years.

Sometimes I wish that, too. (I would also want to have piles and piles of books in there though.. And CDs. Oh, and one or two guitars.)

And you know what? It's alright to crave isolation. Why shouldn't that be okay? Actually, sometimes I do create that situation for myself. I often choose to spent my time alone - and I always do enjoy it.

 

[flake__]

I have just started university/college. I am staying in halls which means lots of people on each floor, u just have one room. My social phobia causes me to isolate myself in this room at times...i try to tell myself this is okay, but then i get people from my floor, hammering on my door all the time. I seem to have got onto the most social floor (they have a reputation within the hall) and everyone seems to know each other, go out together, except me...so they are always hammering on my door, more so because i don't answer.

So i try to tell myself this is okay but this is quite hard when this happens! cos it makes me feel abnormal etc, and it's scary when they're drunk and start shouting and really hammering, i'm scared they will break the door down one day!

 

[recluse]

I too used to have this fantasy alot quietone/foxglove. Being in a room or house for too long makes you go mental on its own. But is this what we really want? It's what the sociophobic part of us wants, but really my ultimate fantasy is to live a normal, social life...and enjoy it, instead of hating every social moment! i want to start my own business and help developing countries, make a difference. But my sociophobia just wants to lock myself away.

I agree!

 

[recluse]

I have just started university/college. I am staying in halls which means lots of people on each floor, u just have one room. My social phobia causes me to isolate myself in this room at times...i try to tell myself this is okay, but then i get people from my floor, hammering on my door all the time. I seem to have got onto the most social floor (they have a reputation within the hall) and everyone seems to know each other, go out together, except me...so they are always hammering on my door, more so because i don't answer.

So i try to tell myself this is okay but this is quite hard when this happens! cos it makes me feel abnormal etc, and it's scary when they're drunk and start shouting and really hammering, i'm scared they will break the door down one day!

Atleast you know that they think about you, but i don't think non-social phobics understand what it's like to suffer from this horrible disorder, when i get invited to go for a christmas drink with work i get panicky, and i just want to say no and hide in the safety of my room but i end up forcing myself to go just so i don't appear snobby.

 

[shadowcopy]

Hi, I had a similar problem when I first went to uni. People used to bang on my door. Eventually I think they did it out of hate. They used to kick the bottom corner of my door at all hours (it was the loudest place to kick). It got to the point where I never left my room and just sat there, still. If they didn't know I was there then whatever they did couldn't be directed at me. It went on like that for 4 months, then I just went home.

Rather than quit, I changed my course and attended a different uni the next year, and tooka good peice of advice I got given.

When you're in and everyone knows it, prop your door open just a little bit. Yeah, people could stick their head around the door, but at least they won't bang, shout or blow smoke under your door.
When you do shut your door, it will just seem like you have gone out. No reason to bang then either.

 

[Doomed2Die]

Shadowcopy ignore people like that, they just pick on someones differences to pull attention away from their own personal problems.

thequiteone I also had such a fantasy, living alone in the wilds or mountains or even take up some monk buddist school thing somewhere, its natural I think.

When I look into what I have to do in society I instantly get hit by both fear and dread and attempt to fall back into my "safe state of mind", when you feel pain the natural thing to do is back away, its easy to feel locking up and hiding somewhere will solve everything, a time to piece together my mind prehaps, well as someone who is doing nothing and sitting in their self made prison right now I can say such thinking is false... it just leads to more pain.

Sure you cancel out the chance to fail 'major ouch' but you condemn youself to long, cold suffering.

 

[flake__]

yeh know what u mean recluse, they think you think you are better than them but you are just terrified but can't explain this to them!

thanks for the tip shadowcopy..not sure i have the guts to leave my door ajar though! they would all come in, and ask me to come clubbing with them etc. I tell them i know people from another floor so am always out...lol....another tip is to listen to headphones and ignore. Kicking and blowing smoke is hard though...so cruel and immature, no wonder you moved.


doomed2die....so what, u mean we should all get out of our rooms and socialise? Way i see it we have 2 options equally unfavourable...sit in our rooms and feel no fear, safe, but lonely....or go out, 'socialise', feel scared, depressed, despairing, exhausted by constant negative self-analysis...and come home feeling thoroughly depressed, but with your social needs as a human more fulfilled.
It's why social phobia is so tough to deal with.

 

[Doomed2Die]

Ah but there is a chance, slim in our own minds it can be, to break free of the trappings and force change to happen, this is why I think it is always the better choice no matter the pain... but of course its alot eaiser said than done.

But then, hope is weird like that.