I am very suspicious of some people's motives when they talk to me, i feel as if they are going to find out that i am a sad loner. It just seems to me like a lot of people i work with are spitefull and i am very guarded about my life (lack of) outside of work.
i go through some of the same things too. when someone is joking around with me, i'll always think that that's what they think of me. even when i can tell they're joking, i have a feeling that it's what they really think and just trying to put it in a "nice" way. I also feel the same way about maybe trying to expose me about having no friends.