I Posted This As My Intro. But Decided To Post It Here To

[bredwh]

Hi, my names Brian. I believe I have Social Anxiety Disorder, though I've never had it actually diagnosed. The same is true with OCD.
I'm 20 years old and have never had a girlfriend, been on a date, kissed a girl, or even talked to girls much. It goes without saying that I'm a virgin, against my will of course.
I have no friends either. I sit at home all day or go to my college classes. I never go out and do anything because I have no one to do anything with, besides my brother who is two years younger than me. I've never really had "friend" friends. I had kids I guess you could call friends when I was younger (little school) but I was never that close with them and I certainly have never had a best friend.
At this point I'm so depressed and sexually frustrated I feel like I'm going to crack. Sometimes I think I already have. Many times even the sight of a beautiful girl will cause me to start crying. Just the fact that I'm not having sex with her right now is more than I can bear at those moments. So close, yet so far...
It's more than just the sex I crave though, I think. I'm just so lonely. I just want to touch someone, anyone. To be with someone. To talk to someone and tell them my deepest secrets and truely be myself with them.
Do you want to know what it's like being the loneliest person in the world? No you don't.

 

[Y]

Aaawww, nice introduction post. Welcome!

I got nothing else to say other than i know how you feel, im lonely and horny too

 

[Richey]

bonjour Brian! and welcome.

a tip regarding the sexual frustration, the problem is your focussed on only that, try seeing a girl as a person like you who you can get to know and befriend, thats the only way relationships really work, if your souly interested in jumping a good looking girl then thats alright, everyone has fantasies and crushes, but try and approach it in a way thats opposite to that, by the way your no different once you lose your virginity, its like anything, just say youve never drawn a cartoon sketch before, its just an activity that your yet to attempt, its not a life changing big deal, its only a big deal in society becuase you grow up thinking that it defines your man hood, and also alot of the wanting to lose your virginity comes down to peer pressure from outside influences who's opinion you respect, the most important step is to find a person who you feel comfortable around and you can enjoy the company of ....the intimacy that follows is more exciting that way, not that im an expert these days.

sex is an activity/recreation that doesnt last long

you wont remember a girlfriend/partner because of the (sex) you remember and care about them because of the fun moments together and the occasions where you can get inside their mind, or make them laugh.

regarding your loneliness, try and discover yourself, keep yourself busy by reading, watching films, studying, or working.

ever notice that when you sit around thinking too much about your characteristics you focus too hard on the negatives and so you feel down.

anyway, good luck, and merry xmas!