Infected_Malignity
Well-known member
I forget why all this happened (so don't ask), but being in a really, really shitty mood made me realize the coolest thing ever. I don't get pissed off a lot, but I woke up just feeling uber... not really pissed or anything, just kinda "I don't give a fuck". That mentality running through my head.
So, obviously (too bad not purposely) not giving a shit about what other people seemed to think, I had probably the greatest day in my SA history in a long ass time. And nothing seemed to matter either, I felt pretty damn okay in my skin (which doesn't happen often), I felt like I didn't have a mask on (which is a difficult thing to achieve for me at least), and most of all, I just accepted myself without trying to change - which I might add is the greatest state to be in.
So all in all, I want to wake up pissed more often (no, I'm just kidding). But in all seriousness, does anybody else know what I mean by all this? Like, as strange as it is, I wanna wake up tomorrow and just feel like "Yep. Whatever, talk to the hand" to everyone that comes in my way, instead of being like I normally am, and go "Oh my god. Did I just hurt that guy's feelings? Oh no, I didn't mean to. Oh jeez, NOW what's he gonna think of me!?"
Shit's weak. I need to confront people more often so I can exercise my 'pissed off' muscle. And sorry for my excessive use of profanity... I fuckin' do that shit all the time without goddamn realizing it.
So, obviously (too bad not purposely) not giving a shit about what other people seemed to think, I had probably the greatest day in my SA history in a long ass time. And nothing seemed to matter either, I felt pretty damn okay in my skin (which doesn't happen often), I felt like I didn't have a mask on (which is a difficult thing to achieve for me at least), and most of all, I just accepted myself without trying to change - which I might add is the greatest state to be in.
So all in all, I want to wake up pissed more often (no, I'm just kidding). But in all seriousness, does anybody else know what I mean by all this? Like, as strange as it is, I wanna wake up tomorrow and just feel like "Yep. Whatever, talk to the hand" to everyone that comes in my way, instead of being like I normally am, and go "Oh my god. Did I just hurt that guy's feelings? Oh no, I didn't mean to. Oh jeez, NOW what's he gonna think of me!?"
Shit's weak. I need to confront people more often so I can exercise my 'pissed off' muscle. And sorry for my excessive use of profanity... I fuckin' do that shit all the time without goddamn realizing it.