what tricks?
I don't know, but I gradually snowballed into the extent of agoraphobia I have today. Does anybody know if I can get disbability? I'm just 21 and I have only worked at 2 jobs, for less than 3 months total. Somebody I need help, I started paying 100 bucks rent last month, and i'm starting to run out, I need some money, but it's so hard for me to get by feeling so anxious when I have no good reason to. I have no clue, I just know that all the negative things that were ever said to me, like all the comments of people telling me how worthless I am, they all whisper at me. Like say I'm at a party or something, I recall, not quite so clearly, that I've been told before, that I'm a loser, that I'm not good enough, that I'm creepy, that I'm too quiet, that I look ugly, all those thoughts that I've been told come and make me nervous, and make me not be able to do the things that I want to do. Like, for some reason, at my jobs, it always tells me that I can't ever be successful or keep that job long enough. I hate it, because if someone makes a comment about me, I usually assume they are right, other people are the only way I really know if I'm doing things right. I'm so insecure, at this point in my life. The other day I got into an altercation with my professor, i didn't even intend to, and it crushed my whole day, I was not even trying to be mean, I just asked a simple question, and I guess I shouldn't have, I regret that and I cried about it. It was so upsetting, I felt like dying.