I Feel So Cut Off From the Rest of the World

[MotherWolff]

I am thinking I am not the only one who feels this way here.

I am posting this cause I want to connect with people, especially those who feel like this.

I have always felt so alienated from the world, but I think its slowly getting worse again because I have graduated from group therapy and hardly have any real reason to leave my house except to grocery shop and go to dialysis.

I always turn on the tv on full blast so I can feel like there are actual people in my house with me.

I do talk aloud to myself, of course when no one is around. But I do not literally conversant with myself. I just speak my inner feelings and thoughts out loud.

I have recently had it set up for my Facebook account to be permanently deleted. The main reason is because I do not want to get in trouble with the voc rehab people by them finding any possibly inappropiate pictures.

So now I feel even more cut off, even though I
barely have any friends on there and all my friends are really family members I hardly know.

So yeah, I also feel like a major loser with no real life.

I will start volunteering for the first time in my 25-year old life.

Hopefully, that will help me feel better.

 

[Graeme1988]

I am thinking I am not the only one who feels this way here.

I am posting this cause I want to connect with people, especially those who feel like this.

I have always felt so alienated from the world, but I think its slowly getting worse again because I have graduated from group therapy and hardly have any real reason to leave my house except to grocery shop and go to dialysis.

Ah can definitely relate tae no' leavin' the house. Obviously ma reason's different from your reason for not going out much. Sorry tae hear but at least yer not the only one wi' feelin's of alienation.

I always turn on the tv on full blast so I can feel like there are actual people in my house with me.

Ah do this wi' ma laptop because it's connect up to ma telly.

I do talk aloud to myself, of course when no one is around. But I do not literally conversant with myself. I just speak my inner feelings and thoughts out loud.

Hi, ah also do this as well! Though, ah tend tae mumble tae masel' rather talk.

I have recently had it set up for my Facebook account to be permanently deleted. The main reason is because I do not want to get in trouble with the voc rehab people by them finding any possibly inappropiate pictures.

So now I feel even more cut off, even though I
barely have any friends on there and all my friends are really family members I hardly know.

So yeah, I also feel like a major loser with no real life.

I will start volunteering for the first time in my 25-year old life.

Hopefully, that will help me feel better.

Sorry, ah haven't got much else tae say... Other than tae say you are NOT a loser! Oh, and, eh, best uh luck and aw the best wi' the volunteerin'. :thumbup:

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

I absolutely feel like volunteering should help, MotherWolff.
Let us know how it goes!

 

[MotherWolff]

Hi Graeme 1988.

I see we share alot of similarities in this area. Does it actually bother you to feel so seperated from the rest of the world?

Hi Weirdy McGee.

Thank you so much for the encouragement. And you to Graeme 1988.

 

[Argentum]

I feel similarly, but I attribute it at least as much to who I am as to the kind of life I lead. I oppose most popular lines of thinking, gravitating towards quieter people instead of loud ones and being able to make my own fun without partying or drinking. Things changed a little when I found a workplace I enjoy, though. Staying indoors and alone contributes a lot to feelings of separation, I find, no matter what's just part of life for someone.

 

[PugofCrydee]

You're not alone MotherWolff.
I too feel isolated from the world. Some days are worse than others.
But I'm not going to let life pass me by without at least trying to improve, and get some enjoyment out of it.
Giving volunteering a go is a fantastic way to start, well done!
What type of volunteering is it?
Please let us know how it goes?

 

[Graeme1988]

Hi Graeme 1988.

I see we share alot of similarities in this area. Does it actually bother you to feel so seperated from the rest of the world?

No, ah've kinda accepted the fact I'm different from the rest of the world. Because ah've bin different since birth.

I'm an outsider and that's fine wi' me, y'know...?

Ah guess, it only actually bothers me when ah think about it and compare masel' to others.

 

[MotherWolff]

I feel similarly, but I attribute it at least as much to who I am as to the kind of life I lead. I oppose most popular lines of thinking, gravitating towards quieter people instead of loud ones and being able to make my own fun without partying or drinking. Things changed a little when I found a workplace I enjoy, though. Staying indoors and alone contributes a lot to feelings of separation, I find, no matter what's just part of life for someone.

I am happy to see that there is someone out there who actually thinks that being quieter than others is a real plus!

I like being to myself sometimes too, just not all of the time.

I don't think anyone has to drink and party to have fun. Even if they are loud or outgoing people.

Sadly, I think you are right about separation. Everyone has to be by themselves eventually.

You're not alone MotherWolff.
I too feel isolated from the world. Some days are worse than others.
But I'm not going to let life pass me by without at least trying to improve, and get some enjoyment out of it.
Giving volunteering a go is a fantastic way to start, well done!
What type of volunteering is it?
Please let us know how it goes?

Its great to see you wanna be happy, PugofCrydee.

Unfortunately, some people have given up on life. But we are gonna keep on trying and lift up those who feel like giving up.

Yeah, you guys will be the first to know about my volunteering.

I plan to volunteer for a hospice thrift shop.

I like the idea of helping people in need. i really love animals too and I had thought of helping out at a no-kill animal shelter, but I think I will run with the thrift shop idea.

No, ah've kinda accepted the fact I'm different from the rest of the world. Because ah've bin different since birth.

I'm an outsider and that's fine wi' me, y'know...?

Ah guess, it only actually bothers me when ah think about it and compare masel' to others.

You're so awesome to be able to accept you are different. But the truth is, everyone is different. If everyone was the same, this website wouldn't exist now would it?

I have a serious issue with comparing myself to others, yes. And the day I can accept my differences from others, the day I will probably be satisfied with myself.

 

[Graeme1988]

You're so awesome to be able to accept you are different.

Aww, cheers. :shyness: It's not bin easy, though. Ah still huv self-esteem & confidence issues, that ah need tae work on. It's an up-hill struggle

But the truth is, everyone is different. If everyone was the same, this website wouldn't exist now would it?

Aye, that's true...

I have a serious issue with comparing myself to others, yes. And the day I can accept my differences from others, the day I will probably be satisfied with myself.

Same here. Doesnae really help tae compare yersel' to someone else. Ye just end feelin' bad about yersel' and that just makes ye depressed.

Well, afore ah start rambling on, ah hope ye can git tae a point where ye can accept yer differences, like ah huv, Mother. It's can difficult, emotional journey but worth it in end. :thumbup:

 

[MotherWolff]

Thanks guys for all of your words of kindness and support.

I really appreciate you all so much! :bigsmile:

 

[bsammy]

i have a few questions, you dont want your rehab to find any inappropriate pictures on your facebook pages?like what exactly?tbh, facebook is good and bad for people like us..if you really want a way to reach out to others without going into the real world(shops, work) then facebook is the way to go..

you are 25 years old?do you have any friends from school you could reach out to?if not, then volunteering is the way to go but please listen, do whatever you can do in your power to start and establish friendships NOW in your 20s because once u hit 30s and above, its extremely difficult...trust me on that one..

 

[tonicobastos]

You mentioned going to group therapy, isn't there anyone from the group that you connected with? I've heard that members from therapy groups tend to form good friendships.

About feeling alienated, I know exactly what you mean. I've been around a lot of people all my life but I have only managed to make one good friend. Even in college , supposedly a good place to make friends, I haven't been able to bond with anyone.:idontknow: