i feel so bad :S

[Skatergirl]

Ok.. my friend called a few min ago if i wanted to hang out today.. have some fun.. but i said no.. and she kept going .. she said, but my mom can bring me, and after that she said, my mom can get you here.. and stuff.. and i said no no no.. i feel so bad
she's such a good friend.. and i keep avoiding it ::
i would love to make some fun with her.. but i just keep saying no
but i have picked a day.. saturday she'll be here..
but i still feel so guilty that i didnt want her to come for today
maybe i made her sad :: and i dont want that!!!!!!!
and i told her i didnt do alot ,, cuz im in my house so much .. i didnt went to the theme park with my parents and stuff this holiday.. so i dont have much to tell what i've did.. i feel so ashamed of my poor life -_-
but guess what.. im honest to her.. glad i can be ::

 

[mylifephails]

Ok.. my friend called a few min ago if i wanted to hang out today.. have some fun.. but i said no.. and she kept going .. she said, but my mom can bring me, and after that she said, my mom can get you here.. and stuff.. and i said no no no.. i feel so bad
she's such a good friend.. and i keep avoiding it ::
i would love to make some fun with her.. but i just keep saying no
but i have picked a day.. saturday she'll be here..
but i still feel so guilty that i didnt want her to come for today
maybe i made her sad :: and i dont want that!!!!!!!
and i told her i didnt do alot ,, cuz im in my house so much .. i didnt went to the theme park with my parents and stuff this holiday.. so i dont have much to tell what i've did.. i feel so ashamed of my poor life -_-
but guess what.. im honest to her.. glad i can be ::

i know how u feel.. i just had few friends that for some reason i didnt feel anxious with.. so if i wanted to go out id call them so i can feel better while they're with me.. but now they left for diffrent countries for college.. =/ have no friends in real life now..

 

[recluse]

I've lost many oppurtunities to make friends because of my avoidant behaviour, i appear aloof and private and i think that makes people stay away from me.