I feel like I can't change my life?

[isolation]

f*ck it......

 

[Ms Cloud]

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[MikeyC]

I've hated my life for so long, but it feels like I can't do anything about it.

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My self confidence has plummeted and i'm letting myself down again.

I think this is why you feel you can't change your life and why you hate it so much. Having confidence to attempt anything is paramount.

Getting a job is difficult, but made more so by your anxiety. Try to get a job that requires minimal human contact, if possible, and that way you may be able to enjoy it. Easier said than done, though.

Maybe even start with hobbies...something you enjoy doing and that way you can get some happiness in before delving into work and stuff.

Good luck.