Glosoli
New member
Hi, I'm new here.
I'm almost 22, and I'm unhappy to say that my life is falling apart all around me, and for once, I feel completely helpless. I've felt helpless before, but this is a darker world that I've entered and lately I'm accompanied by dramatic mood shifts, racing thoughts, nausea, pure hopelessness (to the point where I let myself get fired off night shifts to avoid the anxiety, sadness and pure hell that my mind puts me through).
I do not know if I have social anxiety, but I certainly find social situations very difficult. I've had periods of hypomania where I felt confident as if I didn't care. I did not view what people thought I looked like, and I did not watch my actions like I do now. I can sometimes control this confidence and way of faking personalities to blend in, but it's a head game, it's me analyzing the patterns in which my brain takes depending on my environment and what thoughts I feed myself. This has altered my thinking in ways and now I can't find a stable way of thinking. All I do is sleep, play video games, smoke, read and sleep. I'm always analyzing, in my head, how I appear to others, and I'm definitely a bit strange. I'm not unattractive, but it's not even a factor of appearance, it's how weird I feel. I have been diagnosed with ADD and Asperger's syndrome, but people detest that I'm too normal to have that. Either way, me and my Mother know that I have it, so it definitely attributes, if not as created social anxiety in ways.
And now from all of this, I'm having episodes of depression that are getting out of control. I feel as though I cannot work, I desperately need a break to collect my mind and see a Doctor, psychologist, therapist, anyone, but I have to work.
Too much racing...
I'm almost 22, and I'm unhappy to say that my life is falling apart all around me, and for once, I feel completely helpless. I've felt helpless before, but this is a darker world that I've entered and lately I'm accompanied by dramatic mood shifts, racing thoughts, nausea, pure hopelessness (to the point where I let myself get fired off night shifts to avoid the anxiety, sadness and pure hell that my mind puts me through).
I do not know if I have social anxiety, but I certainly find social situations very difficult. I've had periods of hypomania where I felt confident as if I didn't care. I did not view what people thought I looked like, and I did not watch my actions like I do now. I can sometimes control this confidence and way of faking personalities to blend in, but it's a head game, it's me analyzing the patterns in which my brain takes depending on my environment and what thoughts I feed myself. This has altered my thinking in ways and now I can't find a stable way of thinking. All I do is sleep, play video games, smoke, read and sleep. I'm always analyzing, in my head, how I appear to others, and I'm definitely a bit strange. I'm not unattractive, but it's not even a factor of appearance, it's how weird I feel. I have been diagnosed with ADD and Asperger's syndrome, but people detest that I'm too normal to have that. Either way, me and my Mother know that I have it, so it definitely attributes, if not as created social anxiety in ways.
And now from all of this, I'm having episodes of depression that are getting out of control. I feel as though I cannot work, I desperately need a break to collect my mind and see a Doctor, psychologist, therapist, anyone, but I have to work.
Too much racing...
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