Hi, guys. 
I don't know if what I have is exactly a social anxiety disorder, but I thought you guys might be able to help me. I really don't know what I have...or if I have anything at all. There will be plenty of days (maybe even the majority of days) when I feel completely fine about myself, or just only slightly unsure about myself.
I don't really have a problem with confidence. In fact, I have quite high self esteem in regards to most things about myself. But there are times when I feel like...I just don't like my personality enough. I don't feel worthless or anything; I can easily acknowledge my good qualities, but at the same time, I don't feel like I'm outgoing or emotional or really human enough.
I can experience most positive emotions easily. I can laugh uncontrollably on a near daily basis; I can have a good time with my family; et cetera. But I don't feel really deep emotions very often, including positive ones (like extreme excitement, for example). And I feel like I'm always observing/analyzing people more than actually relating to them. I find their emotional reactions to things more amusing and illogical than anything else, and I wish I could change this because I feel like I'm always at a distance with people because of it.
For example, today there was a dog on the loose. He was following me, and he had a collar, so the thought crossed my mind that I could see where he lived/the phone number and return him. But I didn't really care enough to do so. Then he got behind the fence of our house, and my family was shocked upon seeing him (I wasn't shocked; I rarely ever feel shocked or surprised by anything really). They thought his bark sounded like he was hurt, and of course, they reacted with worry and concern and such. But not me. :-/ I rarely ever feel those kinds of strong emotions or reactions, and I can't even fake them either.
I feel like I just don't understand why people react to things the way they do, their emotions. Or even if I understand why, I don't share these reactions. This makes me wonder if I have some type of autistic disorder or schizoid or something else, and I'm just really confused. Sometimes I think I'm just extremely logical and objective, and that there's nothing really wrong with that, maybe it's just part of who I am and even something to be proud of. Sometimes I feel like I can't feel certain emotions because they aren't logical or necessary, and if I forced myself to feel them, I'd be betraying my own sense of logic. But at the same time, I hate constantly feeling disconnected to humanity.
What do you guys think?
Any advice or information would be appreciated.
I don't know if what I have is exactly a social anxiety disorder, but I thought you guys might be able to help me. I really don't know what I have...or if I have anything at all. There will be plenty of days (maybe even the majority of days) when I feel completely fine about myself, or just only slightly unsure about myself.I don't really have a problem with confidence. In fact, I have quite high self esteem in regards to most things about myself. But there are times when I feel like...I just don't like my personality enough. I don't feel worthless or anything; I can easily acknowledge my good qualities, but at the same time, I don't feel like I'm outgoing or emotional or really human enough.
I can experience most positive emotions easily. I can laugh uncontrollably on a near daily basis; I can have a good time with my family; et cetera. But I don't feel really deep emotions very often, including positive ones (like extreme excitement, for example). And I feel like I'm always observing/analyzing people more than actually relating to them. I find their emotional reactions to things more amusing and illogical than anything else, and I wish I could change this because I feel like I'm always at a distance with people because of it.
For example, today there was a dog on the loose. He was following me, and he had a collar, so the thought crossed my mind that I could see where he lived/the phone number and return him. But I didn't really care enough to do so. Then he got behind the fence of our house, and my family was shocked upon seeing him (I wasn't shocked; I rarely ever feel shocked or surprised by anything really). They thought his bark sounded like he was hurt, and of course, they reacted with worry and concern and such. But not me. :-/ I rarely ever feel those kinds of strong emotions or reactions, and I can't even fake them either.
I feel like I just don't understand why people react to things the way they do, their emotions. Or even if I understand why, I don't share these reactions. This makes me wonder if I have some type of autistic disorder or schizoid or something else, and I'm just really confused. Sometimes I think I'm just extremely logical and objective, and that there's nothing really wrong with that, maybe it's just part of who I am and even something to be proud of. Sometimes I feel like I can't feel certain emotions because they aren't logical or necessary, and if I forced myself to feel them, I'd be betraying my own sense of logic. But at the same time, I hate constantly feeling disconnected to humanity.
What do you guys think?
Any advice or information would be appreciated.
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