Inside I am thoughtful, open, sensitive, caring. I care about the earth, I worry about things, I get so easily hurt by what others say to me. But the way I act and the things I say make me come across completely differently to other people--like a harsh, overly-opinionated b**** sometimes. I am so self-conscious that I end up looking mean, mad...I don't know why I do this. I don't let the real me come out. Instead I come out as an unpleasant person who is judgemental, unhappy. I hear things coming out of my mouth and it's like, "Why did I just say that. This isn't me. That just sounded so mean and ranting". Even my family perceives me like this sometimes, and it hurts my feelings. UGH, this doesn't even make much sense