I cannot connect with a single person.

[tamercloud]

After graduating college, my depression got worse and worse. The whole concept of me finding a good job revolves around networking, and selling yourself, and I detest it. One one hand, I just want to say screw it, and dive into my hole, but every night I feel purposelessness. Every night.

Somehow along the way I lost my ability to connect with people. My younger brother is thinking about marriage and I'm still a virgin going on 25! It makes me hate myself. It makes me secretly hate everyone around me who can't understand me.

I try so hard to find a job, to make friends, but every day I fail. The only thing keeping me going is the creeping fear that I'll die alone. I don't have any money to blow going to bars to pick up women, or to start a new hobby. My depression hurts my social skills, and my lack of social skills causes my depression. It never ends! I just can't keep pulling optimism out of my magic hat everyday when nothing ever happens!

I just felt like I needed to rant a little. If you empathize or have some advice, it would be appreciated.

 

[gummybear22]

snap i live in georgia too!
25 is still really young. you've got a good while to do stuff. what things do you like?

 

[tamercloud]

snap i live in georgia too!
25 is still really young. you've got a good while to do stuff. what things do you like?

Oh, cool. What part of Georgia? I live in the northern area. All the things right now are super introverted stuff, like videogames, anime. I go to the gym too, but I'm too embarrassed to talk to girls because of the shame of still living with my parents.

 

[LazyHermitCrab]

Have you applied to jobs at your college? You could try that to start out and also talk to a career counselor there. I dunno about your college, but mine has career fairs, although I haven't gone to one yet, it's probably a good thing to go to.

 

[tamercloud]

Have you applied to jobs at your college? You could try that to start out and also talk to a career counselor there. I dunno about your college, but mine has career fairs, although I haven't gone to one yet, it's probably a good thing to go to.

I've contacted the two career counselors and have been to career fairs. I'm in the entertainment game design industry so it makes it doubly hard to find a job. I talk to a lot of people, but it always falls apart when they find out I have no professional experience. Networking is what I need, and it is also where I fail the hardest.

 

[LazyHermitCrab]

I've contacted the two career counselors and have been to career fairs. I'm in the entertainment game design industry so it makes it doubly hard to find a job. I talk to a lot of people, but it always falls apart when they find out I have no professional experience. Networking is what I need, and it is also where I fail the hardest.

Maybe you can apply for an internship and work at a call center, teacher assistant, or receptionist on the side? After you get some more experience that should help. Easier said then done but you'll get there. I'm looking for a job too.

 

[gummybear22]

i live in northern ga too
i also think an internship would be a good idea. get your feet wetter and have some experience to tell potential employers
there's older people than you that still live with their parents. if folks think you're a nub for that, then they aren't worth tryin to be friends with. i'm 22 and live with mine. aint no thang.

 

[coyote]

I'm in the entertainment game design industry so it makes it doubly hard to find a job.

in the mean time...

it might be constructive to fill your time by working at a job in another industry

food service, lodging, retail, construction, sanitation, shipping/receiving, etc.

there are jobs out there for people who are not above doing them

 

[laure15]

I'm in the entertainment game design industry so it makes it doubly hard to find a job.

You have programming skills right? You could find a job in software development, mobile app development, systems analysis, consulting, or even start your own business. Coding skills are transferrable to other industries such as health care and banking.

 

[mikebird]

Every word in this first post
is very valuable
and defines my feelings exactly.

Thank You

I'm living through it. A current issue with all people of my age and older, celebrities and everyone I've known is about ageing. Surprisingly, this doesn't affect me. I felt old, fresh from the womb, living with oldies. I might radiate grumpiness. I'm glad to be very different from all normal people, celebrating all their wealth and child production.

I don't accept advice or being told what to do. Individualism.