DespairSoul
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Helllo,
I have boyfrend 1 year and couple months and i love him more then anything on the world. Here is this problem i actually love him to much and im dependence on him im afrraid every day that he will leave me alone.
Im only afrraid if he go work and im alone.But now im meaning that he leave me forever alone. With my SA is very hard to hold my relationship coz he is completely diffrent then me: He loves my fear he loves Public and to me is this going on nervess if he go out with out me coz im so much longing break my fear!Im get always very upseting if he should go somewhere and me not.Relation actually make me for one side very sad and somedays very happy but more sad i dont understand that feeling. It is coz i cant do stuff what he can and im closed in my castle of safety home? I dont know if is better end this relation for his own luck coz i always say he will have million times better live woth out me as with me. Maybe im supposed to be whole live alone if make me realtions more sad but i cant imagine lost him. But im so angry on myself on him that he is healthy and me not that he can do stuff and me not. I dont know what to do. You have guys some sugestion? If some have mood to write about his experiences how do you was feeling in relation pls share with me! Thank you guys. Any asnwer is welcoming im really despair about it what to do. And i love him from whole heart so much i cant imagine be with out him and constantly be with him to coz of us diffrences?Coz im propably envy he is healthy and can do stuff and i cant sound to me so embarrasing my own bad feelings![/COLOR
I have boyfrend 1 year and couple months and i love him more then anything on the world. Here is this problem i actually love him to much and im dependence on him im afrraid every day that he will leave me alone.
Im only afrraid if he go work and im alone.But now im meaning that he leave me forever alone. With my SA is very hard to hold my relationship coz he is completely diffrent then me: He loves my fear he loves Public and to me is this going on nervess if he go out with out me coz im so much longing break my fear!Im get always very upseting if he should go somewhere and me not.Relation actually make me for one side very sad and somedays very happy but more sad i dont understand that feeling. It is coz i cant do stuff what he can and im closed in my castle of safety home? I dont know if is better end this relation for his own luck coz i always say he will have million times better live woth out me as with me. Maybe im supposed to be whole live alone if make me realtions more sad but i cant imagine lost him. But im so angry on myself on him that he is healthy and me not that he can do stuff and me not. I dont know what to do. You have guys some sugestion? If some have mood to write about his experiences how do you was feeling in relation pls share with me! Thank you guys. Any asnwer is welcoming im really despair about it what to do. And i love him from whole heart so much i cant imagine be with out him and constantly be with him to coz of us diffrences?Coz im propably envy he is healthy and can do stuff and i cant sound to me so embarrasing my own bad feelings![/COLOR
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