Horatio
Well-known member
Im starting to get very desperate here and am trying even the most stupid solutions to have a break from being a lonely anxious depressed loser
last night I drank pure ethanol along with a litre of rum and 20 hours later Im still feeling the effects. my excuse was that I couldnt go out on the town without it, that I might kill myself if I didnt find a way to have a break from the lonliness and despair which is overwhelming me
Im trying my best to get better, trying new things, trying to meet people despite the anxiety which so often holds me back and its all a lost cause. Im even spending more money on therapy than rent and as a result am starting to build up huge debts.
does anyone have a solution? not a one time fix for SP/Depression but just something, anything, that can help me just have a break from it all for a few hours every day? If only I could put my life on pause for a few hours every day then maybe I can survive for a little bit longer, maybe being alone wouldnt feel so bad if I couldnt think.
argh fuck it, this world obviously just aint meant for me
last night I drank pure ethanol along with a litre of rum and 20 hours later Im still feeling the effects. my excuse was that I couldnt go out on the town without it, that I might kill myself if I didnt find a way to have a break from the lonliness and despair which is overwhelming me
Im trying my best to get better, trying new things, trying to meet people despite the anxiety which so often holds me back and its all a lost cause. Im even spending more money on therapy than rent and as a result am starting to build up huge debts.
does anyone have a solution? not a one time fix for SP/Depression but just something, anything, that can help me just have a break from it all for a few hours every day? If only I could put my life on pause for a few hours every day then maybe I can survive for a little bit longer, maybe being alone wouldnt feel so bad if I couldnt think.
argh fuck it, this world obviously just aint meant for me