Bama_Heath
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I have never really enjoyed being around large groups of people. I tend to enjoy close personal conversations with a small select group of people instead. I was always very popular in High School and College though. I had tons of friends because I didn't belong to any one particular clique. I liked and got along with everyone. I'm a pretty good looking guy who had lots of Girlfriends and played Lead Guitar in a lot of different up and coming bands. I was confident...not arrogant or cocky...but confident.
Now I am almost completely alone. I have no friends and no confidence. I have not had a meaningful relationship with a girl in over 2 years. I have recently lost my job due to my anger problems getting the best of me and now my degree feels like a worthless piece of paper and I have nowhere to go. I have pushed all my friends away because they are happy and outgoing like I used to be, but I am more secluded and depressed than I have ever been in my life. I have OCD and Anxiety Disorders and have to take Xanax to just be around people or I get super nervous, flushed in the face, and almost have panic attacks.
I am getting older by the day like everyone else and feel like I don't fit in anywhere. Like I will never have a great job, or wife, or children. I think about suicide all the time and the only thing that stops me is my Christian Faith. What happened to me?? How did I go from being the charismatic life of the party that girls wanted to date and guys wanted to be friends with to being a depressed outcast that no one wants to be around??
Now I am almost completely alone. I have no friends and no confidence. I have not had a meaningful relationship with a girl in over 2 years. I have recently lost my job due to my anger problems getting the best of me and now my degree feels like a worthless piece of paper and I have nowhere to go. I have pushed all my friends away because they are happy and outgoing like I used to be, but I am more secluded and depressed than I have ever been in my life. I have OCD and Anxiety Disorders and have to take Xanax to just be around people or I get super nervous, flushed in the face, and almost have panic attacks.
I am getting older by the day like everyone else and feel like I don't fit in anywhere. Like I will never have a great job, or wife, or children. I think about suicide all the time and the only thing that stops me is my Christian Faith. What happened to me?? How did I go from being the charismatic life of the party that girls wanted to date and guys wanted to be friends with to being a depressed outcast that no one wants to be around??
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