drewjanes
Active member
this is a little about my situation.
my name is drew, im 21 years old (or will be in a few weeks) and in the past 2 years i went from working in the Canadian tundra, and flat lands around Alberta. walking 15 miles a day in waste high snow laying dynamite, 12 hours a day.
to what i am now, afraid to leave my house...
i have panic disorder and agoraphobia, i live with anxiety for the most part of every day and panic attacks if i ... do anything by myself, or stray to far from my safe place and/or person.
it started the day i left to come home, after 2 years of working away. the day i left for home i had my first panic attack before my flight. after my first panic attack i recognized the anxiety, and once it became real to me it started to grow every day, gradually, then all at once.
i've started to resent myself for what i've become, all my self confidence is gone. what courage i had, has vanished along with all its forms.
i guess im writing this because i miss who i used to be
... i miss being able to walk where ever i wanted, alone, with a calm mind and with out fear of heart attacks, passing out, suffocating or death.
how can i beat this thing.
this song has been matching my anxiety very well
ANTHONY GREEN - Dear Child (I've Been Dying To Reach You) [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO] - YouTube
my name is drew, im 21 years old (or will be in a few weeks) and in the past 2 years i went from working in the Canadian tundra, and flat lands around Alberta. walking 15 miles a day in waste high snow laying dynamite, 12 hours a day.
to what i am now, afraid to leave my house...
i have panic disorder and agoraphobia, i live with anxiety for the most part of every day and panic attacks if i ... do anything by myself, or stray to far from my safe place and/or person.
it started the day i left to come home, after 2 years of working away. the day i left for home i had my first panic attack before my flight. after my first panic attack i recognized the anxiety, and once it became real to me it started to grow every day, gradually, then all at once.
i've started to resent myself for what i've become, all my self confidence is gone. what courage i had, has vanished along with all its forms.
i guess im writing this because i miss who i used to be
... i miss being able to walk where ever i wanted, alone, with a calm mind and with out fear of heart attacks, passing out, suffocating or death. how can i beat this thing.
this song has been matching my anxiety very well
ANTHONY GREEN - Dear Child (I've Been Dying To Reach You) [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO] - YouTube