kihira
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yeah I came across them via this movie and they also collaborate with an artist I like, Roger Ballen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6bmTNadhJE
How are you feeling?
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yeah I came across them via this movie and they also collaborate with an artist I like, Roger Ballen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6bmTNadhJE
Congratz, Callistia - your first post! Hahah.
I feel like an idiot, because i am not attending any lectures today. I couldn't force myself to give a presentation.
..I wanted to do something about my SA that day..very badly. And then - how convenient- lecturer asked - ''who wishes to give a presentation about population changes from 1850 years til nowadays next lecture?''..so, as no one raised hand and she asked twice.. i had this thought that it is a good chance to prove myself.. or smth like that..and then it happened..i saw my hand raising up and my mouth spilling words ''i would like to!''...while shaking a bit.
BUT today...
I just can't. No. No.
So i am acting like i am absent. Too ashamed to pick up the phone as well.
Can't even e-mail my lecturer. Ahhh.
mg:
I feel like an idiot, because i am not attending any lectures today. I couldn't force myself to give a presentation.
..I wanted to do something about my SA that day..very badly. And then - how convenient- lecturer asked - ''who wishes to give a presentation about population changes from 1850 years til nowadays next lecture?''..so, as no one raised hand and she asked twice.. i had this thought that it is a good chance to prove myself.. or smth like that..and then it happened..i saw my hand raising up and my mouth spilling words ''i would like to!''...while shaking a bit.
BUT today...
I just can't. No. No.
So i am acting like i am absent. Too ashamed to pick up the phone as well.
Can't even e-mail my lecturer. Ahhh.
mg:
S_Spartan
Well-known member
That seems like an odd thing for your professor to ask. Was there extra credit?Congratz, Callistia - your first post! Hahah.
I feel like an idiot, because i am not attending any lectures today. I couldn't force myself to give a presentation.
..I wanted to do something about my SA that day..very badly. And then - how convenient- lecturer asked - ''who wishes to give a presentation about population changes from 1850 years til nowadays next lecture?''..so, as no one raised hand and she asked twice.. i had this thought that it is a good chance to prove myself.. or smth like that..and then it happened..i saw my hand raising up and my mouth spilling words ''i would like to!''...while shaking a bit.
BUT today...
I just can't. No. No.
So i am acting like i am absent. Too ashamed to pick up the phone as well.
Can't even e-mail my lecturer. Ahhh.
Baby steps, my friend, take baby steps.
anomicdeer
Well-known member
At Starbucks for the first time. Nervous. Suppose to be meeting someone here...
Heart racing and shaking.
Heart racing and shaking.
GraybeardGhost
Well-known member
I hate what I've become.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Kind of shitty. My mother often makes me feel like an imposter.
BLARGH.
BLARGH.
BlueDays
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I can't stop getting headaches.
I can't stop hating myself.
I can't stop eating ice-cream.
I can't stop bad thoughts being in my brain that should not be.
I can't stop being angry.
I can't stop wanting revenge.
I can't stop all of the above because I can't stop not caring about stuff I should be caring about.h:
I can't stop hating myself.
I can't stop eating ice-cream.
I can't stop bad thoughts being in my brain that should not be.
I can't stop being angry.
I can't stop wanting revenge.
I can't stop all of the above because I can't stop not caring about stuff I should be caring about.
h:
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
another night watching the news and seeing just how sh!tty the human race can be.
I really wish I could jump into some thought up place.. a place from a story, game or a movie.
I really wish I could jump into some thought up place.. a place from a story, game or a movie.
dannyboy65
Well-known member
Feel worried about my Dad. He's been in the hospital for almost a week now. But I'm excited to maybe hangout with one of my really good friends tonight.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
GraybeardGhost
Well-known member
I'm feeling smashy. :veryangry:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just want it tae end, if I'm honest.
anomicdeer
Well-known member
Me too Graeme, me too.
IntheLabyrinth
Well-known member
That would be awesome!
I feel...lonely. This is a strange and unpleasant sensation. I've been out of town for only a couple of days. A couple of days with no cats or dogs or cows trying to cuddle with me and converse with me and demand food and other things.
Opaline
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The cows converse with you too? Hmm.
I think I'd like to cuddle a cow.
Where did you go?
BlueDays
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Do you mean like you want to smash things?
I have fantasized about smashing every single breakable thing in my kitchen; plates, glasses, cups, bowls, vases etc. Just throwing them as hard as possible against the wall.
Unfortunately I don't have the money to replace them all, so is still only a fantasy.
Lonely IS hard to suffer through.:sad:
Do you know when you will be back with your cats and affectionate moo cows?
I have often focussed on (imagined it happening) the moment of being reunited with the particular thing I miss to help take the edge off.
Yep, that is frustrating when there is not a reason you can think of.
When there seems no reason I find it harder to get any relief from things that normally offer at least a tinsy bit of enjoyment for a short time. Do you find that is the case too?
squidgee
Well-known member
Me too. I get so caught up and immersed in some memorable video game settings, even though most of the time they're even more tragic than real life.
A lot of news is also pretty tragic, but I feel that the world would'nt be as interesting and diverse as it is without the darker side of humanity, which is always going to be around whether we like it or not. All the negative emotions and terrible things humans do make for interesting stories to tell and listen to. It almost sounds like I approve of people to do bad things which is definitely not true, it just seems kind of appropriate in a strange non-sadistic sense that these things happen, like these things are supposed to occur. There's some kind of poeticness to it all. I have no idea if any of this makes sense to anyone here, it's difficult to explain.