Okay, here's a story: I was stuck in a lease once with a roommate who was the devil herself. I felt trapped and depressed, actually, oppressed is a better word for it. I expressed how I felt to a friend who casually said "well, move out." I said "I can't, I have a lease, responsibility etc.." She said "just do. Just get up and do it." I did. Somehow hearing it out of her mouth in such a casual way helped me gain the courage to take that step, take that chance, and it was the best decision I ever made.
So I say to you "just do. Just get up and do it." Sometimes you have to get good and mad before you find the strength to make that change- if that's what you really want to do.
Came across this morning. It has to be the most appropriately time motivational post ever. Just get up and go - do it.
The people in the homeless centre said 'if you don't do this' and I really don't want to do this, 'you can leave tomorrow'.
Well you know what I can 'just get up and do it' and leave tomorrow. I've done it before and I can do it again. I've some the numbers to call to get me into the night shelters. It will be tough but 'll be OK and most of all it will be my choice. I'm not going to be bullied.
Came across this morning. It has to be the most appropriately time motivational post ever. Just get up and go - do it.
The people in the homeless centre said 'if you don't do this' and I really don't want to do this, 'you can leave tomorrow'.
Well you know what I can 'just get up and do it' and leave tomorrow. I've done it before and I can do it again. I've some the numbers to call to get me into the night shelters. It will be tough but 'll be OK and most of all it will be my choice. I'm not going to be bullied.
I'm packed and ready to go.
Sometimes taking control of your life gives you the self esteem you need to take that next step. It's empowering. Even if you're a captain on stormy seas, you know you are in control and you are making your own decisions, living it your way.
Hope you update and let us know how you are doing 🙂
It's too hard to even try with people these days. If I dedicate much time to talking to people, I won't have any time for the things that actually make me happy in the end. I'm sure they're talking to other people they like more, or that there's something they want from me, but not talking to them and finding out ensures that nothing will possibly happen in the future.
Had an amazing week. Made tons of progress speaking with people I highly respect and admire and doing so much better with life in general with work and my career. I wish to feel this way all of the time. Don't get me wrong, I pushed my self to very uncomfortable places but it is worth it when it works-it works.
I went from agoraphobic and suicidally depressed (for the last yr) to this in a span of two weeks-if I can do it anyone can. No meds or therapy just good support from people who believe in me and my ideas. I feel pretty lucky. I am proud of myself for not letting my low self esteem demons take over-Fuk them.
Now, I know that there's a chance this could all go to crap and I might be homeless if it does.. but I will enjoy this victory now.
Had an amazing week. Made tons of progress speaking with people I highly respect and admire and doing so much better with life in general with work and my career. I wish to feel this way all of the time. Don't get me wrong, I pushed my self to very uncomfortable places but it is worth it when it works-it works.
I went from agoraphobic and suicidally depressed (for the last yr) to this in a span of two weeks-if I can do it anyone can. No meds or therapy just good support from people who believe in me and my ideas. I feel pretty lucky. I am proud of myself for not letting my low self esteem demons take over-Fuk them.
Now, I know that there's a chance this could all go to crap and I might be homeless if it does.. but I will enjoy this victory now.
I keep feeling like life is harder than it should be. I know that there are people who have it much worse than me but I find it hard to believe that the average person runs up against this much resistance. Maybe they do, I don't know, but it does seem like things flow for them and opportunities present. Doors close/doors open.
They seem to have the luxury of living life with more reckless abandon because they seem to have the resources to do so.
I pretty much have to scrap for everything I get and even then it's like a 20% success rate.
It's tiring. I'm tired.
I feel alone, not a new thing. And to feel like this for the rest of my life, is a scary thing.
If I could connect to one living soul fully. If I had love for myself and others, I know I have but it gets so hard to feel it. Its so hard to feel alive.
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