I've a poor habit of not keeping in contact with friends. One reached out to me. Her mother suffered cardiac arrest and has been in the hospital for a couple of days. Another friend also contacted me and asked if I wanted to head to the hospital with him. I can sense his sadness and disappointment with my behavior.
Naturally..one should want to go as a support system for a friend right? That'd be easier if they didn't get on my case constantly for my actions. I know they care, but it just makes me feel worse about myself.
I woke up crying and continued to cry as I thought about this person that I had a dream about. A girl that I used to be friends with when I was a child & teenager. It´s weird that some things just end, but they stay alive, inside.
Well, as long as your mighty beard is here to protect us, I shall know no fear! :kiss:
Aw, thanks. Aye, ah should get a shave, haven't shaved for nearly a year... :thinking: Nah! F**k it! Ah'll leave it. 🤭 Mon the beard!
Concert ticket general sale days here in the UK are a f**kin' scam. Ye know how they are pre-sale dates for concerts? That's when most tickets go on sale (especially tickets for those who require disabled access) - Pre-sale! But concert promoters & ticket seller websites (Ticketmaster for example) fail to inform folk of this fact... F**kin' wankers! Aw, sorry, this rant is the reason am pissed off today. :kickingmyself:
I am feeling today both a sense of achievement and a sense of relief...
I went into town and paid 10k off my mortgage!
THEN I went to the doctors to have my smear test::shyness:
Am so glad that's over for the next 3 years.
I am feeling today both a sense of achievement and a sense of relief...
I went into town and paid 10k off my mortgage!
THEN I went to the doctors to have my smear test::shyness:
Am so glad that's over for the next 3 years.
How do you manage to keep living? all I wanna do is to go to sleep and never to wake up
Well I don't wanna die before my time. The only thing I can really say is to keep searching until you find what you're looking for. Seems hopeless at times but I guess I prefer that option better.
Well I don't wanna die before my time. The only thing I can really say is to keep searching until you find what you're looking for. Seems hopeless at times but I guess I prefer that option better.
I agree with this... When it comes down to deciding that you in fact DO want to die, there is that after thought. "Well, if i'm okay with dying right now, I might as well give it one last good shot seeing there is now nothing to loose:." Permission to take positive, potentially productive risks
Kinda disapointed in people,how come bad things only happen to good people and bad people who go looking for it are much better off?
If some kind of God exists you can be sure that he is a big ****ing *******.
I'm feeling dazed and confused, but overall I'm looking forward meeting other people in my life. Yesterday I gave up on going to a prostitute, I wanted to lose my virginity. I decided I'd rather do this the hard way, meeting girls, finding love, or just keeping my eyes open. The desire of love is stronger than the desire of having sex, I now know.
Meh! :idontknow: Why even bother...? :sad: Am just here tae make other folk happy it seems. Nae mind o' ma ain, ma opinions are usually contradicted or made fun of.
Best tae agree an' "play along" - since ah tend tae tell it like it is, in ma opinion. Aw, wait, the Scots are famous fur tellin' it like it f**kin' is.
And no alot o' folk like that, ah've come tae realise. Ye see ma point here, right?
Anyway, ah couldnae sleep much last night. Just reflect on how ah manage tae continue on, withoot much desire or motivation. How the f**k ah manage tae maintain ma temper half the time is beyond me! Any snide "joke" comments made towards me, ah think: "Naw, f**kin' leave it! It's no worth yer time" Just keep a straight face an' walk away, passively. Mentally ragin' and :kickingmyself:
Because, ye see, ah huv a tendency tae fly of the hand an' start raging. No sure if that a Scottish personality. Ye know... general friendly, but an' aggressive, sh*te, cruel humoured f**ker when angry. The Incredible Hulk wi' laugh if ye will...
Am also quite good at highlightin' things that tend tae piss me off with people. Negative personality traits and such. Ah should know, ah got a few o' them, masel'. Or it could just that am quite a cruel b'stard when am honest? Honest tae the point o' maimin' someone, psychologically, speakin', of course.
Or tae put it simple, if ye want me tae be honest wi' ye, there's a chance am gonnae say stuff ye don't want tae hear but need tae be said. There are time where ye just cannae sit an' bite yer tongue. And ye probably f**kin' hate me afterwards, quite rightly anaw...
There nae point tae this rant, really. If there is, it'd be the generalisation that: "Ah f**kin' hate people!" There's a dour Scottish statement fur ye, when spoken aloud in Scots dialect. Nae humour there, by-the-way...
Sorry, just me ramblin' on and ventin' how ah've been feelin', lately.
F**kin' hell... this post's awfy long, innit?! Jesus-fu...! Wait ah'll shorten it doon: F**K!F**K!F**K!F**K! :kickingmyself:
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