How are you feeling?

sick and upset.

MrJones said: ↑

Like I should start hiding my feeling again, forever, it only gives me and others bad times.

You have no idea how much I feel the same way. I should refrain from telling people how I feel.

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

sick and upset.

Two strong arms for a great big (((((HUG)))))

Feeling bad.
I am annoying I'm going to find a rock and bang my head on it.
Really.
(okay maybe a little less rock and a little more door)

BiWinning said: ↑

Feeling bad.
I am annoying I'm going to find a rock and bang my head on it.
Really.
(okay maybe a little less rock and a little more door)

If you open the door first, you will bang on air, and I can tell you it doesn't hurt so bad.

MrJones said: ↑

Like I should start hiding my feeling again, forever, it only gives me and others bad times.

Hiding things doesn't make them go away. It's like the commercials for air freshening spray, where covering the smell of bad fish with lavender just makes a smell of fish and lavender.

If you have feelings people will see them if they are hidden or not, unless you have really strong lavender spray (which, let's be honest, doesn't smell all that great either.) If you can handle them on your own great, but if not you may not be helping others or yourself as much as you'd like to believe.

Bad times will come, and bad times will go. Don't avoid the unavoidable. (minirant sorry)

MrJones said: ↑

If you open the door first, you will bang on air, and I can tell you it doesn't hurt so bad.

I deserve a closed door thankyouverymuch

Empty_shell said: ↑

Hiding things doesn't make them go away. It's like the commercials for air freshening spray, where covering the smell of bad fish with lavender just makes a smell of fish and lavender.

If you have feelings people will see them if they are hidden or not, unless you have really strong lavender spray (which, let's be honest, doesn't smell all that great either.) If you can handle them on your own great, but if not you may not be helping others or yourself as much as you'd like to believe.

Bad times will come, and bad times will go. Don't avoid the unavoidable. (minirant sorry)

I know they won't go away, but it hurts a lot when I try to share my feelings, no matter what, and I don't want people involved as it only gets worse.
As bad as it is, it's still worse when I try to talk.

BiWinning said: ↑

I deserve a closed door thankyouverymuch

That's not true and you know it.

MrJones said: ↑

I know they won't go away, but it hurts a lot when I try to share my feelings, no matter what, and I don't want people involved as it only gets worse.
As bad as it is, it's still worse when I try to talk.

There are ways other than talking to make things better, I'm sure you'll find one of them. 🙂

MrJones said: ↑

That's not true and you know it.

It's true!
Really, how can people stand me?
I fail at humour
I fail at kindness
I fail at trying to be understanding
I am just an epic fail of life.

Sorry, ranting. SEE annoying...

haha~ oh, BiWinning... are you the voice in my head?
You sound like it!
I think the exact same things about myself constantly.

Maybe I am Ms. McGee 😉

BiWinning said: ↑

It's true!
Really, how can people stand me?
I fail at humour
I fail at kindness
I fail at trying to be understanding
I am just an epic fail of life.

Sorry, ranting. SEE annoying...

You can't fail and be winning at the same time, it's a contraindication!

McGee and Biwi - you need new voices because they keep lying to you... 😀 I get feeling those ways and thinking that, but much is unrealistic and bias. I have those thoughts, I fail at this and that. Esp recently. I had some analogy but too tired and lazy to think of it.
I fail at coming up with analogies... 🙂 Really tho Ive said this more and its bleh - these voices in head saying this are poop go away poop thoughts!

(and I agree with Empty_Shell you. 😀

I'm feeling very confused. It's an odd thing to say, but I wish my father would just tell me that he doesn't love me. When he says that he loves me over the few emails I get from him, it feels so fake because (no offence) I don't love him, I don't know him, he doesn't know me anymore, how can he love me? When he says that, I feel almost offended or used. Maybe when you have a child, you always love them even if you didn't have a close connection? Should I give him that? I'm sure this is a problem for a lot of people out there, a good father - child connection is hard to come by.

I had a productive day- running and writing.

BiWinning said: ↑

It's true!
Really, how can people stand me?
I fail at humour
I fail at kindness
I fail at trying to be understanding
I am just an epic fail of life.

Sorry, ranting. SEE annoying...

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

haha~ oh, BiWinning... are you the voice in my head?
You sound like it!
I think the exact same things about myself constantly.

Deus_Ex_Lemur said: ↑

I get feeling those ways and thinking that, but much is unrealistic and bias. I have those thoughts, I fail at this and that. Esp recently.

And this is why I think I should stop right now talking, I don't know why I keep annoying people this way, I don't know why people doesn't tell me to shup the **** up, I only make people feel bad and you know it, those with who I talk to can't deny it....


All I want to say is that all of you are great people and shouldn't feel this way. All of you always make me feel better, but I end up saying something wrong and make people feel bad...

Everytime I try to say something I have to apologize, and people just keep forgiving me for politeness, but I know I'm doing wrong. I am so sorry I'm this way....

EscapeArtist said: ↑

I'm feeling very confused. It's an odd thing to say, but I wish my father would just tell me that he doesn't love me. When he says that he loves me over the few emails I get from him, it feels so fake because (no offence) I don't love him, I don't know him, he doesn't know me anymore, how can he love me? When he says that, I feel almost offended or used. Maybe when you have a child, you always love them even if you didn't have a close connection? Should I give him that? I'm sure this is a problem for a lot of people out there, a good father - child connection is hard to come by.

Well I was heading to my room and just passed my father in the hallway heading to the john with no pants on. Not the kind of connection I wanted. 🙂

I think stuff like this is complicated I don't know much tho a little about your relationship - not all fathers always love their children. Wish that were true. Maybe he means it - maybe not - what is he gaining from emailing/saying it? Could just be saying it to say it, hard for any of us to say without knowing more. I know some fathers like mine find it hard to express "love" and that stuff.

The question is if you had the opportunity to get to know him more, possibly become "closer", potentially, would you want to? Would he? Or does that seem so unrealistic it's laughable to ask? Sorry this causing you emotional blehness confusion. *hugs*

MrJones said: ↑

And this is why I think I should stop right now talking, I don't know why I keep annoying people this way, I don't know why people doesn't tell me to shup the **** up, I only make people feel bad and you know it, those with who I talk to can't deny it....


All I want to say is that all of you are great people and shouldn't feel this way. All of you always make me feel better, but I end up saying something wrong and make people feel bad...

Everytime I try to say something I have to apologize, and people just keep forgiving me for politeness, but I know I'm doing wrong. I am so sorry I'm this way....

Mr Jones, what justice does it do to treat yourself that way? Sure it's easy to beat yourself with those words of guilt, but it's easy to have social anxiety and not let yourself live too. You're worthy of love, and especially from yourself. Talking to yourself like that does nobody justice, and it hurts the people that admire and love you. You're humble, caring, and lovable, and i hope you can see that and say something else to yourself !

EscapeArtist said: ↑

Mr Jones, what justice does it do to treat yourself that way? Sure it's easy to beat yourself with those words of guilt, but it's easy to have social anxiety and not let yourself live too. You're worthy of love, and especially from yourself. Talking to yourself like that does nobody justice, and it hurts the people that admire and love you. You're humble, caring, and lovable, and i hope you can see that and say something else to yourself !

Thanks for your kind words, but if you just know me a bit better you wouldn't say the same...

but thanks.