How are you feeling?

Life can really sucks. *sigh* But it gets better I guess. I know. I think. I do. I make. Someday. But not today...

Invisibleman said: ↑

Im actually annoyed right now. Ive been talking to some girl lately (platonically) who has the IQ of a 4 year old and shes pissing me off....

Women can be very annoying sometimes. My mom's stubborness is intolerable, no matter what you say or argue calmly trying to reason out politely, it's like talking to a damn wall.

Deus_Ex_Lemur said: ↑

Life can really sucks. *sigh* But it gets better I guess. I know. I think. I do. I make. Someday. But not today...

I sowwy Mr. Lemur
Hope it gets better tomorrow 😀

Pretty good~ Today was quite an adventurous day :😛

TryAgain said: ↑

I'm fine, but my sleeping pattern is upside down. It’s 4:05 am and I can’t sleep.

don't worry , i went to bed at 8am yesterday , talk about being upside down

BiWinning said: ↑

I sowwy Mr. Lemur
Hope it gets better tomorrow 😀

Thanks Ms. Biwi. You're very sweeet. 🙂

PipsMcClawski said: ↑

Sad. I guess I should call it a day.

And rest thyself to punch in the card for tomorrow's sadness... what it feels like.

But not to be depressing. I am going to do things to make this night end on a good note. Hopefully 😀 Hope you have a better Sunday Pips.

Overwhelmed 😕

itchy...................

coyote said: ↑

itchy...................

Can I scratch your itch? Or would that be too forward?

dizzy... very dizzy. light headed.
bah

Deus_Ex_Lemur said: ↑

Can I scratch your itch? Or would that be too forward?

what i really need is a shower

covered in fiberglass insulation from taking apart an oven to find the mice that were nesting in it

Invisibleman said: ↑

Im actually annoyed right now. Ive been talking to some girl lately (platonically) who has the IQ of a 4 year old and shes pissing me off....

No, that's bad. I know people with seemingly low IQ's and it's impossible to have a conversation with them. I try not to anymore, or just stick with pleasantries if necessary.

Beatrice said: ↑

Like I enjoyed my day of doing absolutely nothing but vegging here with you lovely folks 🙂

Well, we are quite lovely, aren't we? *giggle*

coyote said: ↑

itchy...................

I have my fingernails at the ready!

Okay, so I'm feeling a little confused, I suppose.

So, I'm in a band. We're not hugely successful or anything like that. We have some kind of following but nothing that could get us supporting Metallica or anything like that. Anyway, we've recorded two albums and we're writing a third one now, with plans to start recording stuff in December. Not to be biased, but I do think the material we have now is really cool and I'm enjoying playing them.

Now, the bad thing is that I'm increasingly becoming unhappy with the band. The guitarist/vocalist is alright. He has Aspergers and has a range of problems that stump even mine but we get along quite well. The bass guitarist, on the other hand, is not cool. I get along with him but I've increasingly found that I have little reason to talk to him outside the band. I don't want to hang around after rehearsals and I don't even want to speak to him most of the time. He has a very mean personality and will constantly taunt our guitarist because why not. With his Aspergers he finds that quite difficult to deal with, as he has told me on a number of occasions.

He keeps saying he'll kick the bassist out but never does. I think he wants to keep him around for the album recording, but I reckon he won't kick him out even after that.

I've also noticed that when they're together, our guitarist will become meaner, as well.

Point is, I like the music and I like what we're doing, but I feel like I'm not connecting with them as a band should.

I want to stay to record the album and have my picture and credits on there, but I've been seriously contemplating leaving, despite that leaving a big hole for our guitarist to fill.

Anyway, thanks for reading. Just feels good to get that out there.

It's not often that I feel totally useless, but now's about one of those times.

Quite depressed. Really really really wish i was dead (with no afterlife). So no more "fake" company --> no more attachment to anything --> no more false complacency/hapiness --> no more loss (of hapiness/things) --> no more harsh aloneness/separation/loneliness. I may as well be living up in "Hell" right now, whever that is.
(hope this doesnt sound too harsh, but is exactly how am feeling)

11:11 make a wish~

EDIT: Damn, missed it by a couple seconds =___=

MaliceInWickedland said: ↑

11:11 make a wish~

You're just a bit late, aren't you? Like... a minute?

Besides, won't be too long before it's 11:11 11/11/11. That's the real time to make a wish.

It's 1:43 10/23/11. Do I make a wish now?? I wish to fall asleep. Unfortunately, I made a stupid mistake. I accidentally took my night meds this morning, so I already took my Ambien for the day. I don't really think it would hurt to take another, but I don't really want to find out.

Like I should start hiding my feeling again, forever, it only gives me and others bad times.

Worried about someone I care very much about.