Got out of the psych ward a couple weeks ago. Apparently I'm bi-polar. (Gasp) No. Really. I never would have thought. (that was sarcasm) but it feels kinda ****ty having it confirmed. Its depressing to know that I'll never grow out of it and it's honestly kind of embarrassing having to tell people where I've been. God, I hate it when people ask me what I've been up to lately, ' Oh you know, I had this fabulous break down recently and they sent me to this awesome prison for crazy people. Not a great conversation starter.
Got out of the psych ward a couple weeks ago. Apparently I'm bi-polar. (Gasp) No. Really. I never would have thought. (that was sarcasm) but it feels kinda ****ty having it confirmed. Its depressing to know that I'll never grow out of it and it's honestly kind of embarrassing having to tell people where I've been. God, I hate it when people ask me what I've been up to lately, ' Oh you know, I had this fabulous break down recently and they sent me to this awesome prison for crazy people. Not a great conversation starter.
Having it confirmed does kind of suck, but now you can work towards making it bearable and controllable. Good luck.
I'm feeling pretty down at the moment. My mother has done this to me. I'm so desperate to move out but I simply can't afford it. Life can eat a big one.
Feel ill, still ill still ill
And empty, lifeless. Not seeing any point in continuing this stupid existance. Yet I continue. Staying alive with no purpose.
Lonely, fed up, and want a change. I feel like I'm in a bubble and want out, but outside there are a thousand things coming at me full force..so why not stay in the bubble. I'm going to attempt to go to an office tomorrow to discuss bills that should have been paid through my insurance, I've been putting it off for monthes and now everytime I look at them I get scared and put them back in the drawer. Hope it passes in time, day by day...
Lonely, fed up, and want a change. I feel like I'm in a bubble and want out, but outside there are a thousand things coming at me full force..so why not stay in the bubble..
I feel like this too. I´m sad and tired of being in the sad bubble, but if I go out of it, I just get knocked out in horrible ways. I´m losing the motivation to do anything.
I hope that your meeting tomorrow will be fine
I'm pretty much home alone for the next couple of days. As if I don't spend enough time by myself as it is. I see my therapist tomorrow and the psychiatrist on Thursday. It's been almost 3 months since I have seen her (she went on vacation to Italy, how dare she!!) and I really don't even know what to tell her. I've had so many ups and downs the past couple of months and I still don't think my medication is right. I guess I could say that. 🙂
Horribly stressed. My day started out bad and now it's getting worse. I woke up late and I had to rush to get to a meeting with a teacher on time. Now, my midterm grades are going to be posted and my family won't let me off easily. Luckily, there's plenty of time to bring my grade back up, but they won't take that excuse. I'm supposed to have no fault, the perfect academic child. Funny thing is, I catch more flack on my academics than my social problems, which are more blaring and important, when, in the past, I was horrible with schoolwork and could speak with others easily. I just want them to accept that I'm capable of fault and to trust me to bring the grade back up.
Horribly stressed. My day started out bad and now it's getting worse. I woke up late and I had to rush to get to a meeting with a teacher on time. Now, my midterm grades are going to be posted and my family won't let me off easily. Luckily, there's plenty of time to bring my grade back up, but they won't take that excuse. I'm supposed to have no fault, the perfect academic child. Funny thing is, I catch more flack on my academics than my social problems, which are more blaring and important, when, in the past, I was horrible with schoolwork and could speak with others easily. I just want them to accept that I'm capable of fault and to trust me to bring the grade back up.
This might be a stupid thought, but it came to me while I was reading your post. Maybe you can try to strike a deal with them. If you can bring your grades up before the end of the semester, then they have to start trusting you more. If not... you'll have to shine their shoes and clean the inside of the oven with your head or something less ridiculous.
Umm confused about what to do with my life. I don't know where I'm heading which is a major cause of stress. Every time I decide something I end up changing my mind and starting back at square one. I'm also getting a bit tired of being in a relationship but am too scared to be on my own again after 2 years.
Other than that stuff I'm doing alright. I'm stressed but still have a positive outlook on life at the moment.
This might be a stupid thought, but it came to me while I was reading your post. Maybe you can try to strike a deal with them. If you can bring your grades up before the end of the semester, then they have to start trusting you more. If not... you'll have to shine their shoes and clean the inside of the oven with your head or something less ridiculous.
I usually bring them up at the end of the day and they know this; I just wonder why they aren't used to it by now. Failing's bad, yes, but, I take care of business.
Those are some "interesting" ultimatums (or is it ultimata?), but no thanks. I can't deter their yelling at me; I try to get used to it, but it's not working. I mean, you can offer to do that if I fail, but I'm not going to;).
I usually bring them up at the end of the day and they know this; I just wonder why they aren't used to it by now. Failing's bad, yes, but, I take care of business.
Those are some "interesting" ultimatums (or is it ultimata?), but no thanks. I can't deter their yelling at me; I try to get used to it, but it's not working. I mean, you can offer to do that if I fail, but I'm not going to;).
I'm not cleaning my own oven with my head. I've certainly not cleaning yours. 🙂
I always feel guilty and I'm not sure why. I do things without thinking, but not that I'm impulsive, it's more than I do something that I think can be good and then I screw it all again and in the end I've made something bad. People say it's the thought that counts, but I don't think it's enough...
I always feel guilty and I'm not sure why. I do things without thinking, but not that I'm impulsive, it's more than I do something that I think can be good and then I screw it all again and in the end I've made something bad. People say it's the thought that counts, but I don't think it's enough...
I'm tired of making so many mistakes....
yeah i know what you mean. i think i'm doing something worthwhile but it turns out being something kinda silly and it seems thoughtless. hope our luck changes in the future 🙂
As for me I had a horrible day. But it was all my doing. I can't blame life or others poor behaviour for today's mess.
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