hocd? help me figure it out.

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recon23

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Hey guys and gals

Well its been a hard six months for me now. I am not sure if its hocd or the real thing. Heres is my situation, there is this little voice in my head that keeps saying "are you gay", "you defenitly are gay". At first it made me so sick, my stomach was constantly churning and I felt so sick for a while. I have had a girlfriend now for over a year, and I love it, I have never felt so good (minus the little voice) in my life when im with my girlfriend. I have never looked at a guy and thought he was good looking, nor would I ever want to swing that way. Its just head repeating over and over again. I have always been attracted to girls my whole life, and I am no different then any guy around me. Sometimes its comes and goes, I wont hear this voice for a period of time, then bam it comes back and its driving me insane. Is this hocd? I have never thought about myself with another guy ever. I just dont no? Any imput people? Thanks so much.
 
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recon23

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Its feels better that I can talk to on this forum and that I am not the only one. I am straight and I no deep down thats the truth. Thanks for the reply, maybe I can get some sleep tonight :)
 
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LockieKermit

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Barry is the man to listen to when it comes to OCD...

HOCD was my first real OCD outbreak.

Eventually though, it will just go away because for me, one day I was like...ok, **** THIS-ive been doing this for months now and i prove my HOCD thoughts wrong everytime... and its gone.
 
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recon23

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thanks guys just talking about my problem has made these past few days so much better for me.......ill be sticking around to this site to help me get through this problem
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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recon23 said:
thanks guys just talking about my problem has made these past few days so much better for me.......ill be sticking around to this site to help me get through this problem
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It's good to come to this site to get an idea of what other sufferers are going through, however, if you continuously come back here to get reassurance you can actually make your OCD worse. The goal is to disregard ANY and ALL thoughts/feelings the HOCD throws at you without having to check anything, analyze anything, or ask any questions. Good luck young Jedi.
 
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recon23

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been a while figured id stop in and say hello. Since I have joined this site I can feel a difference already. For all those suffers out there you will get over this, and keep fighting.
 
PhillyFlyersGrl

PhillyFlyersGrl

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Hey don't worry, and whatever you do don't debate in your head why your having this thought. Its just OCD, or pure O..meaning the obsession part of OCD.
Ive had thoughts about being gay too and other obsessive thoughts. I learned after a while just to tell myself "its just OCD" eventually if you stop taking the thought seriously or stop anaylizing it, it will diminish. I promise you that.
 
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agirl

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I have learned that any time there is a doubt whether or not something is ocd, it always is OCD.

That's why they call it the doubting disorder.
 
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ChillDog

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First off....RELAX! Easier said than done, I know. Something I've been struggling with a lot lately. And let's be clear and honest, anything I type or say might reassure you for a while but if you have genuine OCD, then you'll be worrying about the same thing tomorrow. It's a vicious cycle.
I've been going onto these forums to get information and every once in a while you'd come across someone saying "Don't worry. It's okay to be gay. Be accepting of yourself." etc. Which is all fine and good advice but it doesn't necessarily address what you may be going through and might even throw you into a further panic. Also there are the responses of a few that say "Hey, just admit it, dude! You're gay! Get on with your life!" Also, this type of response doesn't necessarily help either. I know where these people are coming from and have NEVER felt there to be anything wrong with a gay / lesbian lifestyle, but the whole "Get over it!" approach DOES NOT WORK.
What I've found to be the most help is just doing as much research as humanly possible, talk to many people as possible--the internet is a great tool-- and then forget about it. Take a deep breath, forget about it, and go do something else for a while--clean your fridge or something--get out of your own head.
Human beings are strange and mysterious creatures and no two of us are exactly alike. Find out who YOU ARE and everything will be okay. Again, not to give temporary reassurance, but if you're worrying this much about it, it probably is more PHOBIA than anything else. Chill out. You know YOU better than anybody else does and you don't have to subscribe to anything you hear or read. It sounds over-simplified but believe me, it will go away on it's own. The main key is to RELAX. And know if you really find something out about yourself either way, you are ahead of the game. When you know you will know and there won't be panic. You aren't straight, you aren't gay, you aren't bi...you are YOU. Don't imagine the worst. And get off the computer for a little while.
Realize also that in a lot of ways what you're going through is a blessing. There are actually people on this planet that will live out their entire lifetimes, die of old age, and never truly examine the stuff you're looking at right now. This isn't a curse. You're just looking at yourself. This can be scary thing but it is also one of the most rewarding things a person can ever go through. Take a look at it, without fear. The rest will work itself out. Now go clean your fridge!
 
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recon23

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just checkin in my thoughts have gone down severly, instead of thinking about ti nonstop its only a few times a day now, for a few minutes. In my eyes I see this as a stepping stone and soon itll be gone because of the progression I have made. It couldnt have been done without the help of you guys. Thanks you so much.
 
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