Hi all,
Do I have SA?
I've always been shy since a kid, not so much when at Primary School, sadly primary school is the last time I remember being more content with my self.
At secondary school is where things started going downhill, I had a few friends there not many, I started to get bullied early on (verbally), I think this is when I started going into my self, I stopped going out with my friends after school, got heavily addicted into online gaming (Quake's a great game btw, haha) from about 13-17, went straight into college from school but only did 4 months of the course. I found college socially hard, I felt it very hard to make friends, didn't know what to do at lunch times, everyone was new in this class, no previous students from secondary school. I was still into gaming at this stage and I guess that was my escape. I carried on with this life style from 17-20, working a deadend job, finally had enough and went to Australia on my own, thinking I would find my self, kill my shyness, be more my self around people. Australia probably did help a bit, but I found I was drinking lots and taking drugs (ectasy), in moderation, this enabled me to have a group of friends there, I still found it hard to join in the fun around them though when Sober though, I would always be on edge and maybe look moody.
I'm now 24, have recently had a relationship with a girl I really liked, we had been together for 4 months, we broke up yesterday; The main reason for this I was unable to be my self around her when sober, not able to let my self go and be silly... we went away for a long weekend with her friends recently and I think this was the nail on the head. I could not be my self at all, felt very anxious, shaking a lot, when sitting down for meals together in small pubs so the tables were small, everyone could see I was anxious, my mind went blank, I just had to escape the situation and I went to sit in the car pretending I was ill. This carried on for another 2 days, I had no conversation, was in a complete zone of anxiety, I think people were worried for me, I felt like a complete freak, or going through a nervous breakdown.
I'm just mad this has ruined my one and only relationship I've had -
I think that weekend was a big wakeup call and I've only just started reading up on social anxiety, I need to be my self!
I'm looking to see a Counsellor about this, any suggestions on whats best, CBT/NLP?
I've wrote this pretty fast, sorry for any mistakes, appreciate and feedback!
Thanks.
Do I have SA?
I've always been shy since a kid, not so much when at Primary School, sadly primary school is the last time I remember being more content with my self.
At secondary school is where things started going downhill, I had a few friends there not many, I started to get bullied early on (verbally), I think this is when I started going into my self, I stopped going out with my friends after school, got heavily addicted into online gaming (Quake's a great game btw, haha) from about 13-17, went straight into college from school but only did 4 months of the course. I found college socially hard, I felt it very hard to make friends, didn't know what to do at lunch times, everyone was new in this class, no previous students from secondary school. I was still into gaming at this stage and I guess that was my escape. I carried on with this life style from 17-20, working a deadend job, finally had enough and went to Australia on my own, thinking I would find my self, kill my shyness, be more my self around people. Australia probably did help a bit, but I found I was drinking lots and taking drugs (ectasy), in moderation, this enabled me to have a group of friends there, I still found it hard to join in the fun around them though when Sober though, I would always be on edge and maybe look moody.
I'm now 24, have recently had a relationship with a girl I really liked, we had been together for 4 months, we broke up yesterday; The main reason for this I was unable to be my self around her when sober, not able to let my self go and be silly... we went away for a long weekend with her friends recently and I think this was the nail on the head. I could not be my self at all, felt very anxious, shaking a lot, when sitting down for meals together in small pubs so the tables were small, everyone could see I was anxious, my mind went blank, I just had to escape the situation and I went to sit in the car pretending I was ill. This carried on for another 2 days, I had no conversation, was in a complete zone of anxiety, I think people were worried for me, I felt like a complete freak, or going through a nervous breakdown.
I'm just mad this has ruined my one and only relationship I've had -
I think that weekend was a big wakeup call and I've only just started reading up on social anxiety, I need to be my self!
I'm looking to see a Counsellor about this, any suggestions on whats best, CBT/NLP?
I've wrote this pretty fast, sorry for any mistakes, appreciate and feedback!
Thanks.
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