MyLegacy
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I joined this site about 5 minutes ago. I don't even remember how I found it, but when I did, something inside my tense mind relaxed. I'm 45, and right now my life is ok. I'm engaged to a wonderful man, I have finally a roof over my head. But still I'm haunted by why my life was as hurtful as it was.I have always known I have depression, and anger. I'm an alcoholic and an addict(clean and sober for 18 months), and i'm coming to terms with my past. Sort of. What I can't seem to get past is why, as a little girl, i had so much pain, shame, depression. Why was 3 year old me hating myself so much. Why was 7 year old me so hated by the other children in school. Why was the adult me so hateful of everyone else?
When I began poking around in here, it dawned on me that with all the labels given me...social anxiety was never one of them. I don't know much about S.A.D., but I really want to find out. If I belong here, even remotely, i want to stay and get, and GIVE as much help as I can.
If anything I wrote is off-topic, or inapropriate..please let me know.
Thank you so much.
"Sometimes even to live is an act of courage."
Seneca
When I began poking around in here, it dawned on me that with all the labels given me...social anxiety was never one of them. I don't know much about S.A.D., but I really want to find out. If I belong here, even remotely, i want to stay and get, and GIVE as much help as I can.
If anything I wrote is off-topic, or inapropriate..please let me know.
Thank you so much.
"Sometimes even to live is an act of courage."
Seneca
